Mind immaculate in its very being
Question 4 The fourth question: Osho, During the meditations my mind still goes five hundred miles per hour. I never experience silence, and whatever witnessing happens is very short, like flashes. Am I wasting my time? Your mind is mighty slow. Five hundred miles per hour only?! And do you think this is speed? Mighty slow you are. Mind knows no speed, it goes so fast; it is faster than light. Light travels 186,000 miles in one second, mind is faster than that. But nothing to be worried: that is the beauty of the mind, that is a great quality! Rather than taking it negatively, rather than fighting with it, befriend the mind. You say: ”During the meditations my mind still goes five hundred miles per hour.” Let it go! Let it go faster! You be a watcher, you watch the mind going around so fast, with such speed; enjoy this! Enjoy this play of the mind. In Sanskrit we have a special term for it, we call it chidvilas, the play of consciousness. Enjoy it, this play of mind rushing towards stars, moving so fast from here and there, jumping all over existence. What is wrong in it? Let it be a beautiful dance, accept it. My feeling is that what you are doing is you are trying to stop it; you cannot do that. Nobody can stop the mind! Yes, mind stops one day, but nobody can stop it. Mind stops, but that is not out of your effort, mind stops out of your understanding. You just watch and try to see what is happening, why this mind is rushing; it is not rushing without any reason. You must be ambitious...try to see why this mind is rushing, where it is rushing. You must be ambitious; if it thinks about money, then try to understand.... Mind is not the question. You start dreaming about money, that you have won a lottery or this and that, and then you even start planning how to spend it, what to purchase and what not. Or the mind thinks you have become a president, a prime minister, and then you start thinking what to do now, how to run the country, or the world. Just watch the mind, what mind is going towards. There must be a deep seed in you. You cannot stop the mind unless that seed disappears. The mind is simply following the order of your innermost seed. Somebody is thinking about sex: then somewhere there is repressed sexuality. Watch where mind is rushing; look deep into yourself, find where the seeds are. I have heard.... The parson was very much worried. ”Listen,” he said to his verger, ”somebody has stolen my bicycle.” ”Where have you been on it, rector?” inquired that worthy. ”Only round the parish on my calls.” The verger suggested that the best plan would be for the rector to direct his Sunday sermon to the ten commandments. ”When you get to ’Thou shalt not steal,’ you and I will watch the faces we will soon see.” Sunday came. The rector started in fine flow about the commandments, then lost his thread, changed his subject, and trailed off lamely. ”Sir,” said the verger, ”I thought you were going to....” ”I know, Giles, I know. But you see, when I got to ’Thou shalt not commit adultery,’ I suddenly remembered where I had left my bicycle.” Just see where you have left your bicycle. The mind is rushing for certain reasons. The mind needs understanding, awareness; don’t try to stop it. If you try to stop it, in the first place you cannot succeed. In the second place, if you can succeed one can succeed if one makes perseverant effort for years if you can succeed, you will become dull. No satori will happen out of it. In the first place, you cannot succeed, and it is good that you cannot succeed. If you can succeed, if you manage to succeed, that will be very unfortunate you will become dull, you will lose intelligence. With that speed there is intelligence, with that speed there is continuous sharpening of the sword of thinking, logic, intellect. Please don’t try to stop it. I am not in favor of dullards, and I am not here to help anybody to become stupid. In the name of religion many people have become stupid. They have almost become idiots, just trying to stop the mind without any understanding about why it is going with such speed why, in the first place? The mind cannot go without any reason. Without going into the reason in the layers, deep layers of the unconscious, they just try to stop. They can stop, but they will have to pay a price, and the price will be that their intelligence will be lost. You can go around India, you can find thousands of sannyasins, mahatmas. Look into their eyes: yes, they are good people nice, but stupid. If you look in their eyes there is no intelligence, you will not see any lightning. They are uncreative people, they have not created anything, they just sit there. They are vegetating, they are not alive people; they have not helped the world in any way. They have not even produced a painting or a poem or a song, because even to produce a poem you will need intelligence, you will need certain qualities of the mind. I would not suggest that you stop the mind, rather, that you understand. With understanding there happens a miracle. The miracle is that with understanding, by and by when you understand the causes and those causes are looked into deeply, and through that looking deeply into those causes, those causes disappear mind slows down. But intelligence is not lost, because mind is not forced. What are you doing if you don’t remove the causes by understanding? You are driving a car, for example, and you go on pressing the accelerator and at the same time you try to press the brake. You will destroy the whole mechanism of the car, and there is every possibility you will have some accident. This cannot be done together. If you are pushing the brake then leave the accelerator; don’t push it any more. If you are pushing the accelerator, then don’t push the brake. Don’t do both the things together, otherwise you will destroy the whole mechanism; you are doing two contradictory things. You carry on with ambition, and you try to stop the mind? Ambition creates the speed, so you are accelerating the speed, and putting a brake on the mind: you will destroy the whole subtle mechanism of the mind. And mind is a very delicate phenomenon, the most delicate in the whole of existence, so don’t be foolish about it. There is no need to stop it. You say: ”I never experience silence and whatever witnessing happens is very short, like flashes.” Feel happy! Even that is something of tremendous value. Those flashes, they are not ordinary flashes. Don’t just take them for granted! There are millions of people for whom even those small glimpses have not happened. They will live and die and they will never know what witnessing is, even for a single moment. You are happy, you are fortunate. But you are not feeling grateful. If you don’t feel grateful, those flashes will disappear. Feel grateful they will grow; with gratitude, everything grows. Feel happy that you are blessed; they will grow. With that positivity, things will grow. ”And whatever witnessing happens is very short.” Let it be very short! If it can happen for a single split moment, it is happening; you will have the taste of it. And with the taste, by and by you will create more and more situations in which it happens more and more. ”Am I wasting my time?” You cannot waste time, because you don’t possess time. You can waste something that you possess. Time you don’t possess. Time will be wasted anyway; whether you meditate or not, time will be wasted. Time is rushing by. Whatsoever you do do anything, or don’t do anything time is going. You cannot save time so how can you waste time? You can waste only something which you can save. You don’t possess time. Forget about it! And the best use you can have of time is to have these small glimpses, because finally you will come to see only those moments have been saved which were moments of witnessing, and all else has gone down the drain. The money that you earned, the prestige that you earned, the respectability that you earned, is all gone down the drain. Only those few moments that you had some flashes of witnessing, only those moments are saved. Only those moments will go with you when you leave this life. Only those moments can go, because those moments belong to eternity, they don’t belong to time. But feel happy it is happening. It always happens slowly, slowly: one drop by one drop a great ocean can become full. It happens in drops, but in the drops the ocean is coming. You just receive it with gratitude, with celebration, with thankfulness. And don’t try to stop the mind. Let the mind have its speed...you watch.
The fifth question: Osho, How can the sex energy be transformed into samadhi? Tantra and Yoga have a certain map of the inner man. It will be good if you understand that map; it will help you, it will help you greatly. Tantra and Yoga suppose that there are seven centers in man’s physiology, the subtle physiology, not in the body. In fact they are metaphors, but they are very, very helpful to understand something of the inner man. These are the seven chakras. First, and the most basic, is muladhar. That’s why it is called muladhar: muladhar means the most fundamental, the basic. Mul means the basic, of the roots. The muladhar chakra is the center where sex energy is right now available, but the society has damaged that chakra very much. This muladhar chakra has three angles to it: one is oral, the mouth; the second is anal; and the third is genital. These are the three angles of the muladhar. The child starts his life with the oral, and because of wrong upbringing, many people remain at the oral, they never grow. That’s why so much smoking, chewing gum, continuous eating, happens. This is an oral fixation, they remain in the mouth. There are many primitive societies which don’t kiss. In fact if the child has grown well, kissing will disappear. Kissing shows the man has remained oral; otherwise what does sex have to do with lips? When for the first time primitive societies came to know about civilized man’s kissing, they laughed, they simply thought it ridiculous two persons kissing each other! It looks unhygienic too, just transferring all sorts of illnesses to each other, infections. And what are they doing? And for what? But humanity has remained oral. The child is not satisfied orally; the mother does not give her breast as much as the child needs, the lips remain unsatisfied. So the child will smoke cigarettes later on, will become a great kisser, will chew gum, or will become a great eater, continuously eating this and that. If mothers give their breast as much as the child needs, then the muladhar is not damaged.
If you are a smoker, try a pacifier and you will be suddenly surprised it has helped many people, I give it to many people. If somebody comes and asks me how to stop smoking, I say, ”Just have a pacifier, a false breast, and keep it in the mouth. Let it hang around your neck and whenever you feel like smoking, just put the pacifier in the mouth and enjoy it. And within three weeks you will be surprised: the urge to smoke has disappeared.” Somewhere the breast is still appealing; that’s why man is so much focused on feminine breasts. There seems to be no reason. Why, why is man so much interested in feminine breasts? Painting, sculpture, film, pornography, everything seems to be breast-oriented! And women are continuously trying to hide and yet show their breasts; otherwise the bra is just foolish. It is a trick to hide and show together; it is a very contradictory trick. And now in America, where every foolish thing goes to its extreme, they are injecting chemicals into women’s breasts, silicon and other things. They are stuffing breasts with silicon so they become bigger and can get the shape, the shape that ungrown-up humanity wants to see. This childish idea...but man remains somehow oral. This is the lowest state of the muladhar. Then a few people change from oral and they become stuck at the anal, because the second great damage happens with toilet training. Children are forced to go to the toilet at a certain time. Now, children cannot control their bowel movements; it takes time, it takes years for them to come to a control. So what do they do? They simply force, they simply close their anal mechanism, and because of this they become anal-fixated. That’s why so much constipation exists in the world. It is only man who suffers from constipation. No animal suffers from constipation, in the wild state no animal suffers from constipation. Constipation is more psychological; it is a damage to the muladhar. And because of constipation many other things grow into the human mind. A man becomes a hoarder a hoarder of knowledge, hoarder of money, hoarder of virtue...becomes a hoarder and becomes miserly. He cannot leave anything! Whatsoever he grabs, he holds it. And with this anal emphasis, a great damage happens to muladhar, because the man or the woman has to go to the genital. If they get fixated at the oral or at the anal, they never go to the genital. That is the trick the society has used up to now not to allow you to become fully sexual. Then anal-fixation becomes so important that genitals become less important. Hence so much homosexuality. Homosexuality will not disappear from the world until and unless anal orientation disappears. Toilet-training is a great, dangerous training. And then, if some people become genital somehow they are not fixated at the oral and the anal and become genital then there is great guilt created in humanity about sex. Sex means sin. Christianity has thought sex so much a sin that they go on pretending and proposing and trying to prove a foolish thing: that Christ was born out of a miracle, that he was not born out of a man-woman relationship, that Mary was a virgin. Sex is such a sin that how can Jesus’ mother have sex? It is okay for other ordinary people...but for Jesus’ mother to have sex? Then how can Jesus, such a pure man, be born out of sex? I was reading.... There was a young woman who did not seem very well, so her mother took her to the doctor. Mother did all the talking, she was that sort. ”She’s pregnant,” said the doctor. ”Doctor, I must call you a fool. My daughter has never so much as kissed a man! Have you darling?” ”No, mama, I have not even held a man’s hand.” The doctor left his chair, walked to the window, and gazed at the sky. There was a long silence, then mother asked, ”Is there anything wrong out there, doctor?” ”Not at all, not at all. Only the last time this happened, a star appeared in the east, and I don’t want to miss it this time!” Sex has been condemned so much, you cannot enjoy it. And that’s why energy remains fixated somewhere: oral, anal, genital. It cannot go upwards. Tantra says man has to be relieved, destructured from these three things. So Tantra says that the first great work has to happen in the muladhar. For oral freedom screaming, laughing, shouting, crying, weeping, are very helpful. That’s why my choice of encounter, gestalt, primal and that type of group they are all helpful to relieve the oral fixation. And to relieve you of the anal fixation, pranayam, bastrika, fast chaotic breathing, is very helpful, because it hits directly on the anal center and makes you able to relieve and relax the anal mechanism. Hence the dynamic meditation is of tremendous value. And then the sex center: the sex center has to be relieved of the burden of guilt, condemnation. You have to start relearning about it; only then can the damaged sex center function in a healthy way. You have to start relearning to enjoy it without any guilt. There are a thousand and one types of guilt. In the Hindu mind there is a fear: that semen energy is great energy; even if a single drop is lost, you are lost. This is a very constipatory attitude hoard it! Nothing is lost. You are such a dynamic force, you go on creating that energy every day. Nothing is lost. The Hindu mind is too much obsessed with virya, with semen energy; not a single drop should be lost! They are continuously afraid. So whenever they make love, if they make love, then they feel very much frustrated, very much depressed, because they start thinking so much energy is lost. Nothing is lost. You don’t have a dead quota of energy; you are a dynamo you create energy, you create it every day. In fact the more you use it, the more you have it. It functions like the whole body: if you use your muscles they will grow, if you walk your legs will be strong, if you run you will have more energy to run. Don’t think that a person who has never run and suddenly runs will have energy he will not have energy. He will not have even the musculature to run. Use all that has been given to you by God and you will have more of it! So there is one Hindu madness: to hoard. This is on the lines of constipation. And now there is an American madness that is like diarrhoea: just throw, go on throwing meaningfully, meaninglessly, go on throwing. So even a man of eighty years continuously thinks in childish ways. Sex is good, sex is beautiful, but is not the end. It is the alpha but not the omega. One has to go beyond it, but going beyond it is not a condemnation! One has to go through it to go beyond it. Tantra is the most healthy attitude about sex. It says sex is good, sex is healthy, sex is natural, but sex has more possibilities than just reproduction. And sex has more possibilities than just fun. Sex is carrying something of the ultimate in it, of samadhi. The muladhar chakra has to be relaxed, relaxed from constipation, relaxed from diarrhea. The muladhar chakra has to function at the optimum, one hundred percent; then energy starts moving. The second chakra is svadhishthan. That is the hara, the death center. These two centers are very much damaged, because man has been afraid of sex and man has been afraid of death. So death has been avoided: don’t talk about death! Just forget about it, it does not exist. Even if sometimes it exists, don’t notice it, don’t take any note of it. Go on thinking that you are going to live forever; avoid death! Tantra says: Don’t avoid sex and don’t avoid death. That’s why Saraha went to the cremation ground to meditate not to avoid death. And he went with the arrowsmith woman to live a life of healthy, full sex, of optimum sex. On the cremation ground, living with a woman, these two centers had to be relaxed: death and sex. Once you accept death and you are not afraid of it, once you accept sex and you are not afraid of it, your two lower centers are relaxed. And those are the two lower centers which have been damaged by the society, badly damaged. Once they are relieved.... The other five centers are not damaged. There is no need to damage them because people don’t live in those other five centers. These two centers are naturally available. Birth has happened: the sex center, muladhar. And death is going to happen: svadhishthan, the second center. These two things are there in everybody’s life, so society has destroyed both centers and tried to manipulate man, dominate man, through these two things. Tantra says: Meditate while you make love, meditate while somebody dies; go, watch, see. Sit by the side of a dying man. Feel, participate in his death. Go in deep meditation with the dying man. And when a man is dying there is a possibility to have a taste of death, because when a man is dying he releases so much energy from the svadhishthan chakra.... He has to release because he is dying. The whole repressed energy on the svadhishthan chakra will be released because he is dying; without releasing it he will not be able to die. So when a man dies or a woman dies, don’t miss the opportunity. If you are close by to a dying man, sit silently, meditate silently. When the man dies, in a sudden burst the energy will be all over, and you can have a taste of death. And that will give you a great relaxation. Yes, death happens, but nobody dies. Yes, death happens, but in fact death never happens. While making love, meditate so that you can know that something of samadhi penetrates into sexuality. And while meditating on death, go deep into it so that you can see that something of the deathless enters into death. These two experiences will help you to go upwards very easily. The other five centers fortunately are not destroyed; they are perfectly in tune, just energy has to move through them. If these first two centers are helped, energy starts moving. So let death and love be your two objects of meditation. Question 6 The last question: Osho, Is ’Osho’ going to be like the Coca-Cola advertisement all over the world? Why not...? Enough for today.
Mind immaculate in its very being
When in winter Still water by the wind is stirred, It takes as ice the shape and Texture of a rock. When the deluded are disturbed By interpretative thoughts, That which is as yet unpatterned Turns very hard and solid. Mind immaculate in its very being Can never be polluted by Samsara’s or nirvana’s impurities. A precious jewel deep in mud Will not shine, though it has luster. Knowledge shines not in the dark, But when the darkness is illumined, Suffering disappears at once. Shoots grow from the seed And leaves from the shoots. He who thinks of the mind In terms of one or many Casts away the light and Enters the world. Into a raging fire He walks with open eyes Who could be more Deserving of compassion? Ah, the beauty of existence! The sheer delight of it! The joy, the song, and the dance! But we are not here. We appear to exist, but we are almost nonexistential, because we have lost contact with existence, we have lost our roots in it. We are like an uprooted tree: the sap flows no more, the juice has dried up. No more flowers will come, and the fruits.... Not even birds come to take shelter in us. We are dead, because we are not yet born. We have taken physical birth as our birth; that is not our birth. We are still existing as potentialities, we have not become actual; hence the misery. The actual is blissful, the potential is miserable. Why is it so? because the potential cannot be at rest. The potential is continuously restless, it has to be restless: something is going to happen. It hangs in the air, it is in limbo. It is like a seed...how can the seed rest and relax? The rest and relaxation is known only by the flowers. The seed has to be deep in anguish, the seed has to continuously tremble. The trembling is...whether he will be able to become actual, whether he will find the right soil, whether he will find the right climate, whether he will find the right sky. Is it going to happen, or will he simply die without being born? The seed trembles inside, the seed has anxiety, anguish. The seed cannot sleep, the seed suffers from insomnia. The potential is ambitious, the potential longs for the future. Have you not watched this in your own being? that you are continuously longing for something to happen and it is not happening, that you are continuously hankering, hoping, desiring, dreaming, and it is not happening! And life goes on flowing by. Life goes on slipping out of your hands and death comes closer, and you are not yet actual. Who knows which will come first: actualization, realization, blossoming, or maybe death? Who knows? Hence the fear, the anguish, the trembling. Sren Kierkegaard has said man is a trembling. Yes, man is a trembling because man is a seed. Friedrich Nietzsche has said man is a bridge. Exactly right! Man is not a place to rest, it is a bridge to pass over. Man is a door to go through, you cannot rest at being man. Man is not a being, man is an arrow on the way...a rope stretched between two eternities. Man is a tension. It is only man who suffers from anxiety, the only animal on the earth who suffers from anxiety. What can be the cause of it? It is only man who exists as potentiality. A dog is actual; there is nothing else to happen. A buffalo is actual; there is nothing more, it has already happened. Whatsoever could happen has happened. You cannot say to a buffalo, ”You are not yet a buffalo” that will be foolish. But you can say to man, ”You are not yet man.” You can say to man, ”You are incomplete.” You cannot say to a dog, ”You are incomplete.” That will be stupid to say; all dogs are fully complete. Man has a possibility, a future. Man is an opening. So the constant fear, whether we are going to make it or not, whether we are going to make it this time or not.... How many times have we missed before? Are we going to miss again? That’s why we are not happy. Existence goes on celebrating: there is great singing, there is great joy, there is great rejoicing! The whole existence is always in an orgy, it is a carnival. The whole existence at each moment is in an orgasm! Somehow man has become a stranger. Man has forgotten the language of innocence. Man has forgotten how to relate with existence. Man has forgotten how to relate with himself. To relate with oneself means meditation; to relate with existence means prayer. Man has forgotten the very language. That’s why we appear like strangers, strangers in our own home, strangers to ourselves. We don’t know who we are, and we don’t know why we are, and we don’t know for what we go on existing. It seems to be an endless waiting...waiting for Godot. Nobody knows whether Godot is ever to come or not. In fact, who is this Godot? nobody knows even that. But one has to wait for something, so one creates some idea and waits for it. God is that idea, heaven is that idea, nirvana is that idea. One has to wait because one has somehow to fill one’s being, otherwise one feels very empty. Waiting gives a sense of purpose and a direction. You can feel good: at least you are waiting. It has not happened yet, but it is going to happen some day. What is it that is going to happen? We have not even raised the right question what to say about the right answer, we have not even asked the right question! And remember, once the right question is asked the right answer is not very far away, it is just by the corner. In fact it is hidden in the right question itself. If you go on asking the right question, you will find the right answer through that very questioning. So the first thing today that I would like to tell you is that we are missing, we are continuously missing, because we have taken mind as the language to relate with existence. And mind is a way to cut yourself off from existence. It is to put yourself off, it is not the way to put yourself on. Thinking is the barrier. Thoughts are like China Walls around you, and you are groping through the thoughts: you cannot touch reality. Not that reality is far away: God is just close by, just a prayer away at the most. But if you are doing something like thinking, brooding, analyzing, interpreting, philosophizing, then you start falling away and away and away. More and more you fall away from reality, because the more thoughts you have, the more difficult it is to look through them. They create a great fog. They create blindness. This is one of the fundamentals of Tantra: that a thinking mind is a missing mind, that thinking is not the language to relate with reality. Then what is the language to relate with reality? Non-thinking. Words are meaningless with reality. Silence is meaningful. Silence is pregnant, words are just dead. One has to learn the language of silence. And then something exactly like this happens: you were in your mother’s womb...you have forgotten about it completely, but for nine months you had not spoken a single word, but you were together, in deep silence. You were one with the mother; there was no barrier between you and the mother, you didn’t exist as a separate self. In that deep silence your mother and you were one. There was tremendous unity; it was not union, it was unity. You were not two so it was not union, it was simple unity. You were not two. The day you become silent again, the same happens: again you fall into the womb of existence. Again you relate you relate in a totally new way. Not exactly totally new, because you had known it in your mother’s womb, but you have forgotten it. That’s what I mean when I say man has forgotten the language of how to relate. That is the way: as you related with your mother in her womb. Every vibe was conveyed to the mother, every vibe of the mother was conveyed to you. There was simple understanding; no misunderstanding existed between you and your mother. Misunderstanding comes only when thinking comes in. How can you misunderstand somebody without thinking? Can you? Can you misunderstand me if you don’t think about me? How can you misunderstand? And how can you understand me if you think? Impossible. The moment you think, you have started interpreting. The moment you think, you are not looking at me, you are avoiding me. You are hiding behind your thoughts. Your thoughts come from your past. I am here, present, I am a statement herenow, and you bring your past. You must know about the octopus.... When the octopus wants to hide, it releases black ink around itself, a cloud of black ink. Then nobody can see the octopus, it is simply lost in its own created cloud of black ink; it is its safety measure. Exactly the same is happening when you release a cloud of thoughts around you you are lost into it. Then you cannot relate and nobody can relate to you. It is impossible to relate to a mind; you can relate only to a consciousness. A consciousness has no past. A mind is just past and nothing else. So the first thing Tantra says is that you have to learn the language of orgasm. Again, when you are making love to a woman or to a man, what happens? For a few seconds it is very rare; it is becoming even rarer and rarer as man is becoming more and more civilized. For a few seconds again you are no longer in the mind. With a shock you are cut off from the mind, in a jump you are outside the mind. For those few seconds of orgasm when you are out of the mind, you again relate. Again you are back in the womb, in the womb of your woman or in the womb of your man. You are no longer separate. Again there is unity not union. When you start making love to a woman, there is the beginning of a union. But when orgasm comes there is no union, there is unity; the duality is lost. What happens in that deep, peak experience? Tantra reminds you again and again that whatsoever happens in that peak moment is the language to relate with existence. It is the language of the guts, it is the language of your very being. So either think in terms of when you were in the womb of your mother, or think in terms of when you are again lost in the womb of your beloved and for a few seconds mind simply does not work. Those moments of no-mind are your glimpses into samadhi, glimpses of satori, glimpses of God. We have forgotten that language, and that language has to be learned again. Love is the language. The language of love is silent. When two lovers are really in deep harmony, in what Carl Jung used to call synchronicity, when their vibes are just synchronizing with each other, when they are both vibrating on the same wavelength, then there is silence. Then lovers don’t like to talk. It is only husbands and wives who talk, lovers fall silent. In fact the husband and wife cannot keep silence because language is the way to avoid the other. If you are not avoiding the other, if you are not talking, it becomes very embarrassing, the presence of the other. The husband and wife immediately release their ink. Anything will do, but they release the ink around themselves; they are lost in the cloud, then there is no problem. Language is not a way to relate, more or less it is a way to avoid. When you are in deep love you may hold the hand of your beloved, but you will be silent...utter silence, not a ripple. In that rippleless lake of your consciousness, something is conveyed, the message is given. It is a wordless message. Tantra says: One has to learn the language of love, the language of silence, the language of each other’s presence, the language of the heart, the language of the guts. We have learned a language which is not existential. We have learned an alien language utilitarian of course...fulfills a certain purpose of course but as far as higher exploration of consciousness is concerned it is a barrier. On the lower level it is okay. In the marketplace of course you need a certain language, silence won’t do. But as you move deeper and higher, language won’t do. Just the other day I was talking about the chakras; I talked about two chakras: muladhar chakra and svadhishthan chakra. Muladhar means the base, the root. It is the sex center, or you can call it the life center, the birth center. It is from muladhar that you are born. It is from your mother’s muladhar and your father’s muladhar that you have attained to this body. The next chakra was svadhishthan: it means the abode of the self; it is the death chakra. It is a very strange name to give to the death chakra: abode of the self, svadhishthan, where you exist really. In death? yes. When you die you come to your pure existence, because only that dies which you are not. The body dies. The body is born out of the muladhar. When you die the body disappears, but you? no. Whatsoever has been given by the muladhar is taken away by svadhishthan. Your mother and father have given you a certain mechanism; that is taken away in death. But you? you existed even before your father and mother had known each other; you have existed always. Jesus says somebody asks him about Abraham, what he thinks about the prophet Abraham, and he says: Abraham? I am, before Abraham ever was. Abraham existed almost two thousand, three thousand years before Jesus, and he says: I am, before Abraham was! What is he talking about? As far as bodies are concerned, how can he be before Abraham? He is not talking about the body, he is talking about I-am-ness, his pure being that is eternal. This name, svadhishthan, is beautiful. It is exactly the center that in Japan is known as hara. That’s why in Japan suicide is called harakiri to die or to kill yourself through the hara center. This svadhishthan takes only that which has been given by the muladhar, but that which has been coming from eternity, your consciousness, is not taken away. Hindus have been great explorers of consciousness. They called it svadhishthan because when you die then you know who you are. Die in love and you will know who you are. Die in meditation and you will know who you are. Die to the past and you will know who you are. Die to the mind and you will know who you are. Death is the way to know. In ancient days in India the master was called the death because you have to die in the master. The disciple has to die in the master, only then does he come to know who he is. These two centers have been very much poisoned by the society; these are the centers easily available to the society. Beyond these two are five more centers. The third is manipura, the fourth is anahata, the fifth is vishuddha, the sixth is agya, and the seventh is sahasrar. The third center, manipura, is the center of all your sentiments, emotions. We go on repressing our emotions in the manipura; it means the diamond. Life is valuable because of sentiments, emotions, laughter, crying, tears and smiles. Life is valuable because of all these things, these are the glory of life. Hence the chakra is called manipura, the diamond chakra. Only man is capable of having this precious diamond. Animals cannot laugh; naturally they cannot cry either. Tears are a certain dimension which is available to man only. The beauty of tears, the beauty of laughter, the poetry of tears and the poetry of laughter are available to man only. All other animals exist with only two chakras, muladhar and svadhishthan. They are born and they die; between the two there is nothing much. If you are also born and you die, you are an animal, you are not man yet. And many millions of people exist only with these two chakras; they never go beyond them. We have been taught to repress sentiments, we have been taught not to be sentimental. We have been taught sentimentality does not pay: be practical, be hard; don’t be soft, don’t be vulnerable, otherwise you will be exploited. Be hard! At least show that you are hard, at least pretend that you are dangerous, that you are not a soft being. Create fear around you. Don’t laugh, because if you laugh you cannot create fear around you. Don’t weep; if you weep you show that you are afraid yourself. Don’t show your human limitations. Pretend that you are perfect. Repress the third center and you become a soldier, not a man but a soldier an army man, a false man. Much work is done in Tantra to relax this third center. Emotions have to be relieved, relaxed. When you feel like crying you have to cry, when you feel like laughing you have to laugh. You have to drop this nonsense of repression; you have to learn expression, because only through your sentiments, your emotions, your sensitivity, do you come to that vibration through which communication is possible. Have you not seen it? You can say as much as you want and nothing is said; but a tear rolls down on your cheek...and everything is said. A tear can say much more; you can talk for hours and it won’t do, and a tear can say all. You can go on saying, ”I am very happy, this and that...” but your face will show just the opposite. A little laughter, a real authentic laughter, and you need not say anything, the laughter says all. When you see your friend, your face beams, flashes with joy. The third center has to be made more and more available. It is against thinking, so if you allow the third center you will relax in your tense mind more easily. Be authentic, sensitive; touch more, feel more, laugh more, cry more. And remember, you cannot do more than is needed, you cannot exaggerate. You cannot even bring a single tear more than is needed, and you cannot laugh more than is needed. So don’t be afraid, and don’t be miserly. Tantra allows life all its emotions. These are the three lower centers lower not in any sense of evaluation. These are the three lower centers, lower rungs of the ladder. Then comes the fourth center, the heart center, called anahata. The word is beautiful. Anahata means unstruck sound. It means exactly what Zen people mean when they say, ”Do you hear the sound of one hand clapping?” unstruck sound. The heart is just in the middle: three centers below it, three centers above it. And the heart is the door from the lower to the higher, or from the higher to the lower. The heart is like a crossroads. And the heart has been completely bypassed. You have not been taught to be heartful. You have not even been allowed to go into the realm of the heart, because it is very dangerous. It is the center of the soundless sound. It is the nonlinguistic center, unstruck sound. Language is struck sound, we have to create it with our vocal chords; it has to be struck, it is two hands clapping. The heart is one hand clapping: in the heart there is no word, it is wordless. We have avoided the heart completely, we have bypassed it. We move in such a way in our being, as if the heart does not exist, or at the most as if it is just a pumping mechanism for breathing, that’s all. It is not. The lungs are not the heart. The heart is hidden deep behind the lungs. And it is not physical either, it is the place from where love arises. That’s why love is not a sentiment, and sentimental love belongs to the third center, not to the fourth. Love is not just sentimental. Love has more depth than sentiments, love has more validity than sentiments. Sentiments are momentary. More or less the sentiment of love is misunderstood as the experience of love. One day you fall in love with a man or a woman and the next day it is gone, and you call it love. It is not love, it is a sentiment. You liked the woman liked, remember, not loved it was a like, just as you like ice cream. It was a like. Likes come and go, likes are momentary; they cannot stay long, they don’t have any capacity to stay long. You like a woman, you loved her, and finished the like is finished. It is just like you liked ice cream; you have eaten it, now you don’t look at the ice cream at all. And if somebody goes on giving you more ice cream, you will say, ”Now it is nauseating; stop! I cannot take any more.” Liking is not love. Never misunderstand liking for love, otherwise your whole life you will be just a driftwood, you will be drifting from one person to another. Intimacy will never grow. The fourth center, the anahata, is very significant, because it is in the heart that for the first time you were related to your mother. It was through the heart that you were related to your mother, not through the head. In deep love, in deep orgasm, again you are related through the heart, not through the head. In meditation, in prayer, the same happens: you are related with existence through the heart, heart-to-heart. Yes, it is a dialogue heart-to-heart, not head-to-head. It is nonlinguistic. And the heart center is the center from where the soundless sound arises. If you relax into the heart center, you will hear omkar, aum. That is a great discovery. Those who have entered the heart, they hear a continuous chanting inside their being which sounds like ’aum’. Have you ever heard anything like a chanting which goes on by itself? not that you do it.... That’s why I am not in favor of mantras. You can go on chanting ”Aum, aum, aum,” and you can create a mental substitute for the heart. It is not going to help, it is a deception. And you can go on chanting for years and you can create a false sound within yourself as if your heart is speaking; it is not. To know the heart you are not to chant aum, you have just to be silent. One day, suddenly the mantra is there. One day, when you have
fallen silent, suddenly you hear the sound coming from nowhere. It is arising out of you from the innermost core; it is the sound of your inner silence. Just as in a silent night there is a certain sound, the sound of the silence, exactly like that on a very, very much deeper level, a sound arises in you. It arises, let me remind you again and again. It is not that you bring it in; it is not that you repeat ”Aum, aum.” No, you don’t say a single word. You are simply quiet, you are simply silent, and it bursts forth like a spring.... Suddenly it starts flowing, it is there. You hear it you don’t say it, you hear it. That is the meaning when Mohammedans say that Mohammed heard the Koran that is the meaning. That is exactly what happens at the innermost core of your heart not that you say it, you hear it. Mohammed heard the Koran, he heard it happening inside. He was really puzzled; he had never heard anything like this. It was so unknown, it was so unfamiliar. The story says that he became ill...it was so weird! When suddenly, sitting in your room, if one day you start hearing inside aum, aum, or anything, you will start feeling, ”Am I going mad?” You are not saying it, nobody else is saying it are you going mad? Mohammed was sitting on a hilltop when he heard it. He came back home trembling, perspiring, he had a high fever. He really became disturbed...he told his wife, ”Just bring all the blankets and cover me! I have never had such a trembling; a great fever has come to me.” But his wife could see that his face was illuminated: ”What type of fever is this? His eyes are burning, afire with something tremendously beautiful. A grace has entered with him in the house. A great silence has fallen over the house.” Even his wife started hearing something. She said to Mohammed, ”l don’t think it is a fever, I think God has blessed you. Don’t be afraid! What has happened? tell me!” His wife was the first Mohammedan; Khadija was her name. She was the first convert. She said, ”I can see. God has happened to you, something has happened to you, something is flowing from your heart all over the place. You have become luminous! You have never been like this, something extraordinary has happened. Tell me why you are so much worried and trembling. Maybe it is new, but you tell me.” And Mohammed told her, very much afraid of what she would think, but she became converted; she was the first Mohammedan. It has always happened so. Hindus say the Vedas were recited by God himself. It simply means that they were heard. In India for the holy scriptures we have a word, the word is shruti; shruti means that which has been heard. At this center of the heart, the anahata chakra, you hear. But you have not heard anything inside you no sound, no omkar, no mantra. That simply means you have avoided the heart. The waterfall is there, and the sound of running water is there, but you have avoided it. You have bypassed; you have taken some other route, you have taken a shortcut. The shortcut simply goes from the third center, avoiding the fourth. The fourth is the most dangerous center because it is the center out of which trust is born, faith is born. And the mind has to avoid it. If the mind does not avoid it, then there will be no possibility for doubt. Mind lives through doubt. This is the fourth center. And Tantra says: Through love you will come to know this fourth center. The fifth center is called vishuddha. Vishuddha means purity. Certainly after love has happened there is purity and innocence, never before it. Only love purifies, and only love...nothing else purifies. Even the ugliest person in love becomes beautiful. Love is nectar: it cleanses all poisons. So the fifth chakra is called vishuddha vishuddha means purity, absolute purity. It is the throat center. And Tantra says: Only speak when you have come to the fifth center via the fourth only speak through love, otherwise don’t speak. Speak through compassion, otherwise don’t speak. What is the point of speaking? If you have come through the heart and if you have heard God speaking there or God running there like a waterfall, if you have heard the sound of God, the sound of one hand clapping, then you are allowed to speak. Then your throat center can convey the message, then something can be poured even into words. When you have it, it can be poured even into words. Very few people come to the fifth center, very rarely because they don’t come to the fourth even, so how can they come to the fifth? It is very rare. Somewhere a Christ, a Buddha, a Saraha, they come to the fifth. The beauty even of their words is tremendous; what to say about their silence, even their words carry silence. They speak and yet they speak not. They say and they say the unsayable, the ineffable, the inexpressible. You also use the throat, but that is not vishuddha. The chakra is completely dead. When that chakra starts, your words have honey in them. Then your words have a fragrance, then your words have a music to them, a dance. Then whatsoever you say is poetry, whatsoever you utter is sheer joy. And the sixth chakra is agya: agya means order. With the sixth chakra you are in order, never before it. With the sixth chakra you become the master, never before it. Before it you were a slave. With the sixth chakra, whatsoever you say will happen, whatsoever you desire will happen. With the sixth chakra you have will, never before it; before it, will exists not. But there is a paradox in it.
With the fourth chakra ego disappears. With the fifth chakra all impurities disappear and then you have will so you cannot harm through your will. In fact it is no longer your will, it is God’s will, because the ego disappears at the fourth, all impurities disappear at the fifth. Now you are the purest being, just a vehicle, instrumental, a messenger. Now you have will because you are not; now God’s will is your will. Very rarely does a person come to this sixth chakra, because this is the last, in a way. In the world this is the last. Beyond this is the seventh, but then you enter a totally different world, a separate reality. The sixth is the last boundary line, the checkpost. The seventh is sahasrar: sahasrar means one-thousand-petaled lotus. When your energy moves to the seventh, sahasrar, you become a lotus. Now you need not go to any other flower for honey, now other bees start coming to you. Now you attract bees from the whole earth or even sometimes from other planets bees start coming to you. Your sahasrar has opened, your lotus is in full bloom. This lotus is nirvana. The lowest is muladhar. From the lowest life is born, life of the body and the senses. With the seventh life is born life eternal, not of the body, not of the senses. This is the Tantra physiology. It is not a physiology of the medical books. Please don’t look for it in the medical books, it is not there. It is a metaphor, it is a way of saying. It is a map to make things understandable. If you move this way, you will never come to that cloudedness of thoughts. If you avoid the fourth chakra, then you go into the head. Now to be in the head means not to be in love; to be in thoughts means not to be in trust; to be thinking means not to be looking. Now the sutras: When in winter still water by the wind is stirred, It takes as ice the shape and texture of a rock. When the deluded are disturbed by interpretative thoughts, That which is as yet unpatterned turns very hard and solid. Saraha says: ...in winter.... Listen to each word, meditate on each word. ...in winter still water by the wind is stirred, It takes as ice the shape and texture of a rock. A silent lake without any ripples is the metaphor for consciousness. A silent lake without any ripples, waves, no stirring, no wind blowing...that is the metaphor for consciousness. The lake is liquid, flowing, silent; it is not hard, it is not like rock. It is soft like roseflowers, it is vulnerable. It can flow in any direction, it is not blocked. It has flow and it has life and it has dynamism, but nothing is disturbed; the lake is silent, peaceful. This is the state of consciousness. In winter...’winter’ means when desires have arisen. Why call them winter? When desires arise you are in a cold desert land, because they never are fulfilled. Desires are a desert. They delude you, there is no fulfillment in them. They never come to any fruition; it is a desert land and very cold, cold like death. No life flows through desires. Desires block life, they don’t help life. So Saraha says: When in winter...when desires have arisen in you, that is the climate of winter...still water by the wind is stirred...and thoughts come, a thousand and one thoughts from every direction; that is the symbol of wind. Winds are coming, stormy winds are coming; you are in a desire state, full of lust, ambition, becoming, and thoughts arise. In fact, desires invite thoughts. Unless you desire, thoughts cannot come. Just start a desire and immediately you will see thoughts have started coming. Just a moment before there was not a single thought, and then a car passes by and a desire has arisen: you would like to have this car. Now a thousand and one thoughts, immediately they are there. Desire invites thought. So when there is desire, thoughts will come from every direction, winds will blow upon the lake of consciousness. And desire is cold, and thoughts go on stirring the lake. When in winter still water by the wind is stirred, It takes as ice the shape and texture of a rock. Then the lake starts becoming frozen. It starts becoming solid, rocklike; it loses fluidity, it becomes frozen. This is what in Tantra is called the mind. Meditate over it. The mind and consciousness are not two things but two states, two phases of the same phenomenon. Consciousness is liquid, flowing; mind is rocklike, like ice. Consciousness is like water. Consciousness is like water, mind is like ice; it is the same thing. The same water becomes ice, and the ice can be melted again; through love, through warmth, it can be melted again and will become water. And the third stage is when water evaporates and becomes invisible and disappears; that is nirvana, cessation. You cannot even see it now. Water is liquid, but you can see: when it evaporates it simply disappears, it goes into the unmanifested. These are three states of water and these are three states of mind too. Mind means ice, consciousness means liquid water, nirvana means evaporation. When the deluded are disturbed by interpretative thoughts, That which is as yet unpatterned turns very hard and solid. The lake is unpatterned. You can pour water into any vessel, it will take the shape of the vessel. But you cannot pour ice into any vessel: it will resist, it will fight.
Two types of people come to me: one who comes like water.... His surrender is simple, very innocent, childlike; he does not resist. Work starts immediately, no need to waste time. Then somebody comes with great resistance, with fear; he is protecting himself, armoring himself. Then he is like ice, it is very difficult to give him liquidity. He fights all efforts to make him liquid. He is afraid he may lose his identity. He will lose solidity, that’s true, but not identity. Yes, he will lose the identity that solidity has, but that solidity is bringing misery and nothing else. When you are solid you are like a dead rock. Nothing can flower in you, and you cannot flow. When you are flowing you have juice. When you are flowing you have energy. When you are flowing, you have dynamism. When you are flowing you are creative. When you are flowing you are part of God. When you have become frozen you are no longer part of this great flow, you are no longer part of this great ocean; you have become a small island, frozen, dead. When the deluded are disturbed by interpretative thoughts, That which is as yet unpatterned turns very hard and solid. Be mindful. Be more and more in the state of unpatternedness, unstructuredness. Be without character, that’s what Tantra says. It is very hard even to understand, because down the centuries we have been taught to have characters. Character means a rigid structure, character means the past, character means a certain enforced discipline. Character means you are no longer free, you only follow certain rules. You never go beyond those rules, you have a solidity. A man of character is a solid man. Tantra says: Drop character, be fluid, more flowing, live moment to moment. It does not mean irresponsibility; it means greater responsibility because it means greater awareness. When you can live through a character you need not be aware, character takes care. When you live through a character you can fall asleep easily. There is no need to be awake, the character will continue in a mechanical form. But when you don’t have any character, when you don’t have any hard structure around you, you have to be alert each moment. Each moment you have to see what you are doing. Each moment you have to respond to the new situation. A man of character is a dead man. He has a past, but no future. A man who has no character...and I am not using the word in the same sense as when you use it about somebody, that he is characterless. When you use that word characterless you are not using it rightly, because whomsoever you call characterless has a character. Maybe it is against the society, but he has a character; you can depend on him too. The saint has a character, so does the sinner: they both have characters. You call the sinner characterless because you want to condemn his character; otherwise he has a character. You can depend on him: give him the opportunity and he will steal; he has a character. Give him the opportunity and he is bound to steal. Give him the opportunity and he will do something wrong; he has a character. The moment he comes out of the jail he starts thinking, ”What to do now?” Again he is thrown in the jail, again he comes out.... No jail has ever cured anybody. In fact jailing a person, imprisoning a person, makes him even more clever, that’s all. Maybe you won’t be able to catch him so easily next time, but nothing else; you just give him more cleverness. But he has a character. Can’t you see? a drunkard has a character, and a very, very stubborn character. A thousand and one times he thinks not to drink anymore, and again the character wins and he is defeated. The sinner has a character, so has the saint. What Tantra means by characterlessness is freedom from character. The character of the saint and the character of the sinner both make you solid like rocks, ice. You don’t have any freedom, you can’t move easily. If a new situation arises you cannot respond in a new way. You have a character, how can you respond in a new way? You have to respond in the old way. The old, the known, the well-practiced, you are skilled in it. A character becomes an alibi: you need not live. Tantra says: Be characterless, be without character. Characterlessness is freedom. Saraha was saying to the king: Sir, I am characterless. You want to put me back into my old solidity of being a scholar, a pundit in the court? You want to put me back into my past? I have dropped out of it. I am a characterless person. Look at me! Now I don’t follow any rules, I follow my awareness. Look at me: I don’t have any discipline, I have only my consciousness. My only shelter is my consciousness. I live out of it. I don’t have any conscience; my consciousness is my only shelter. Conscience is character, and conscience is a trick of the society. The society creates a conscience in you so that you need not have any consciousness. It makes you follow certain rules for so long; it rewards you if you follow, it punishes you if you don’t follow. It makes you a robot. Once it has made the mechanism of conscience in you, it can be free of you. Then you can be trusted, you will be a slave your whole life. It has put a conscience in you just as if Delgado had put an electrode in you; it is a subtle electrode, but it has killed you. You are no longer a flow, no longer a dynamism.
Saraha says to the king: I am unstructured, sir. I have dropped out of all patterns. I don’t have any identity anymore. I live in the moment. Mind immaculate in its very being can never be Polluted by samsara’s or nirvana’s impurities. A precious jewel deep in mud Will not shine, though it has luster. Says Saraha: Mind immaculate.... When the mind has no thoughts, that is when the mind is pure consciousness. When the mind is a silent lake without any ripples, no interpretative thoughts, no analytical thoughts, when the mind is not philosophizing but just is.... Tantra says: Walking, walk; sitting, sit; being, be! Exist without thinking. Let life flow through you without any blocks of thoughts. Let life flow through you without any fear. There is nothing to fear you have nothing to lose. There is nothing to fear, because death will take only that which birth has given to you. And it is going to take it anyway, so there is nothing to fear. Let life flow through you. Mind immaculate in its very being can never be Polluted by samsara’s or nirvana’s impurities. And Saraha says: You think I have become impure so you have come to help me and bring me to the world of the pure people? I am now in an immaculate state of mind. I am no longer solid ice. Nothing can pollute me anymore, because no thought can create a ripple in me: I have no desire. That’s why a tremendous saying he says...polluted by samsara’s or nirvana’s impurities. No, it is not possible, not even nirvana can pollute me! What to say about samsara! This arrowsmith woman cannot pollute me, neither can this cremation ground pollute me, nor can my mad activities pollute me; nothing can pollute me. I am beyond pollution. I am no longer in a state where pollution is possible. Even nirvana cannot pollute me! What does he mean when he says even nirvana, even nirvana’s impurities? Saraha is saying: I don’t desire the world, I don’t desire even nirvana. To desire is to be impure. Desire is impure, what you desire is irrelevant. You can desire money; it is impure. You can desire power; it is impure. You can desire God; it is impure. You can desire nirvana; it is impure. Desire is impure; the object does not matter, what you desire is meaningless. Desire...the moment desire comes, thoughts come. Once the climate of cold winter is there, the desire, then winds start blowing. If you start thinking how to attain to nirvana, how to become enlightened, you will be inviting thoughts; your lake will be stirred. Again you will start becoming frozen in pieces; you will become solid, rocklike, dead. You will lose the flow and flow is life, and flow is God, and flow is nirvana. So Saraha says: Nothing can pollute me, don’t be worried about me. I have come to a point, I have attained to a point, where impurity is not possible. A precious jewel deep in mud Will not shine, though it has luster. You can throw me into mud, into dirty mud, but now dirty mud cannot make me dirty. I have attained to that precious jewelness, I have become a precious jewel now I have understood who I am! Now you can throw this jewel into any mud, any dirt; maybe it will not shine, but it cannot lose its preciousness, it will still have luster. It will still be the same precious jewel. A moment comes when you look into yourself and you see your transcendental consciousness: then nothing can pollute you. Truth is not an experience, truth is experiencing. Truth is not an object of awareness, truth is awareness. Truth is not outside, truth is your interiority. Says Sren Kierkegaard: Truth is subjectivity. If truth is like an object, you can get it and lose it; but if truth is you, how can you lose it? Once you have known, you have known; then there is no going back. If truth is some experience, it can become polluted; but truth is experiencing, it is your innermost consciousness. It is you. It is your being. Knowledge shines not in the dark, but when the darkness Is illumined, suffering disappears at once. Says Saraha: Knowledge shines not in the dark...the darkness of the mind, the darkness of a structured being, the darkness of ego, the darkness of thoughts, a thousand and one thoughts; the darkness that you go on creating around yourself like an octopus. Because of that darkness that you go on creating, your innermost jewel shines not; otherwise it is a lamp of light. Once you stop creating this ink around you, this black cloud around you, then there is illumination. And...suffering disappears at once. This is the Tantra message, a great, liberating message. Other religions say you will have to wait. Christianity says, Islam says, Judaism says, you will have to wait for the last judgment day, when everything will be reckoned with what good you have done, what bad you have done and then you will be rewarded or punished accordingly. You have to wait for the future, for the judgment day. Hindus, Jainas and others say you have to balance your bad acts with good acts; bad karma has to be dropped and good karma has to be evolved. You will have to wait for that too. It will take time. For millions of lives you have been doing millions of things, good and bad: to sort it out, to balance it, it is going to be almost impossible.
The Christian and the Judaic and the Mohammedan judgment day is easier: at least you will not have to reckon with everything you have done. God will take care, he will judge that is his business. But Jainism and Hinduism say you have to look into your bad karmas, drop the bad, replace it with good; that too it seems will take millions of lives. Tantra is liberating. Tantra says: ...suffering disappears at once. The moment you look into yourself...that single moment of inner vision, and suffering disappears, because suffering had never really existed. It was a nightmare. It is not because you have done bad karmas, that’s why you are suffering; Tantra says you are suffering because you are dreaming. You have not done anything, neither good nor bad. This is tremendously beautiful! Tantra says you have not done anything, God is the doer. The whole is the doer, how can you do anything? If you have been a saint, it was his will; if you have been a sinner, it was his will. You have not done anything. How can you do? You are not separate from him, how can you do? You don’t have any separate will; it is his will, it is the universal will. So Tantra says you have not done anything good or bad. This has to be looked into, that’s all; you have to see your innermost consciousness. It is pure, eternally pure, unpolluted by samsara or nirvana. Once you have seen that vision of your pure consciousness, all suffering stops immediately, at once! It does not take even a split second. Shoots grow from the seed And leaves from the shoots. And then things start changing. Then the seed is broken. The seed, Tantra says, is ego; once the seed of the ego is broken.... The closed seed is ego, the broken seed is egolessness. You put the seed in the earth...it cannot grow unless it disappears, unless it breaks, dies. Ego is like an egg: hidden behind it is the possibility of growth. The seed, once broken, becomes egolessness. Then shoots come: shoots are no-thoughts, no-desires, no-mind. Then leaves come: leaves are knowing, experiencing, illumination, satori, samadhi. Then flowers come: flowers are satchidanand being, consciousness, truth. And then the fruit: the fruit is nirvana, utter disappearance into existence. Once the seed is broken, everything follows. The only thing to be done is to put the seed into the earth, to allow it to disappear. The master is the earth and the disciple is the seed. The last sutra: He who thinks of the mind in terms of one or many Casts away the light and enters the world. Into a raging fire he walks with open eyes Who could be more deserving of compassion? He who thinks of the mind in terms of one or many.... Thinking is always divisive, it divides. Thinking is like a prism; yes, mind is like a prism. A pure white ray enters into the prism and is divided into seven colors, a rainbow is born. The world is a rainbow. Through the mind, through the prism of the mind, one single ray of light, one single ray of truth enters and becomes a rainbow, a false thing. The world is a false thing. The mind divides. It cannot see the whole, it always thinks in terms of duality. Mind is dualistic. Or, mind is dialectical: it thinks in terms of thesis, antithesis. The moment you talk about love, hate is present. The moment you talk about compassion, anger is present. The moment you talk about greed, the opposite is present, charity is present. Talk about charity and greed is present; they go together. They come in one package, they are not separate. But the mind continuously creates that. You say ’beautiful’ and you have said ’ugly’ too. How can you say beautiful if you don’t know what ugliness is? You have divided. Say ’divine’ and you have divided, you have said ’profane’. Say ’God’ and you have proposed a Devil too. How can you say God without a Devil there? They go together. Mind divides, and reality is one, indivisibly one. Then what to do? Mind has to be put aside. Don’t look through the prism. Push away the prism and let the white light, the oneness of existence penetrate your being. He who thinks of the mind in terms of one or many, Casts away the light and enters the world. If you think of one or many, dual or nondual, if you think in concepts, you have entered the world, you have cast away the light. There are only two possibilities: either cast away the mind or cast away the light. It is your choice. A man came once to Ramakrishna. He was praising Ramakrishna very highly, and he was touching Ramakrishna’s feet again and again, and he was saying, ”You are simply great you have renounced the world. You are such a great man! How much you have renounced!” Ramakrishna listened, laughed and said, ”Wait! You are going too far, the truth is just the opposite.” The man said, ”What do you mean?” Ramakrishna said, ”I have not renounced anything. You have renounced. You are a great man!”
The man said, ”Are you kidding? I have renounced? I am a worldly man, I indulge in things, a thousand and one greeds are there. I am very ambitious, I am very money-oriented. How can I be called great? No, no, you must be joking!” And Ramakrishna said, ”No. There were two possibilities before me, and two were the possibilities before you. You have chosen the world and renounced God; I have chosen God, renounced the world. Who is the real renouncer? You have renounced the greater, more valuable, and chosen the meaningless. And I have renounced the meaningless and chosen the valuable. If there is a great diamond and a stone, you have chosen the stone and renounced the diamond; I have chosen the diamond and renounced the stone and you call me a great man, a great man of renunciation? Have you gone mad? I am indulging in God. I have chosen the precious one.” Yes, I too agree with Ramakrishna, Mahavira, Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, Saraha, they have not renounced. They have indulged, they have truly indulged. They have really enjoyed, they have celebrated existence. We who are running after ordinary stones, we are the great renouncers. There are only two possibilities: either renounce the mind and choose the light, or renounce the light and choose the mind; it is up to you. He who thinks of the mind in terms of one or many Casts away the light and enters the world. Into a raging fire he walks with open eyes Who could be more deserving of compassion? Saraha says: Sir, you have come to help me. You think you are compassionate towards me. Certainly your whole kingdom will think that way, that the king has gone to the cremation ground: how much is his compassion for Saraha! You think you have come because of compassion? You make me laugh! In fact it is I who am feeling compassion for you, not otherwise. It is I who am feeling sorry for you. You are a fool! Into a raging fire he walks with open eyes... Your eyes appear to be open, but they are not open. You are blind! You don’t know what you are doing...living in the world, do you think you are enjoying? You are just in a raging fire. Exactly that happened when Buddha left his palace and left the boundaries of his kingdom, and told his driver, ”Now you go back. I am going into the jungle; I have renounced.” The old driver said, ”Sir, I am old enough, I am more aged than your father; listen to my advice. You are doing something utterly foolish! Leaving this beautiful kingdom, this palace, a beautiful wife, all the luxuries for which each human being hankers where are you going and for what?” Buddha looked back at that marble palace and he said, ”I see there only fire and nothing else, a raging fire. The whole world is burning with fire. And I am not renouncing it because there is nothing to renounce in it. I am trying just to escape from the fire. No, I don’t see any palace and I don’t see any joy there.” Saraha says to the king: Into a raging fire he walks with open eyes Who could be more deserving of compassion? You think, sir, you have come because of compassion to help me? No, the situation is just the reverse: I feel compassion for you. You are living in a raging fire. Beware! Be alert! Be awake! And get out of it as soon as possible, because all that is beautiful, all that is truthful, all that is good, is known and experienced only through the no-mind. Tantra is a process of creating no-mind in you. No-mind is the door of nirvana. Enough for today.
Hingle de jibity dangely ji
Audio:Yes Video:No Length:96 mins Question 1 The first question it is from Prabha: Osho, Hingle de je, bipity jang dang do run nun, de jun bung. Hingle de jibbity dangely ji. This is wonderful, Prabha! This is beautiful, this is just far out, baby! I am driving you sane. Just a step more ...and the enlightenment. Question 2 The second question: Osho, Is prayer useful? If so, teach me how to pray. I mean, prayer to receive God’s love, to feel his grace. First, prayer is not useful, not at all. Prayer has no use, no utility. It is not a commodity. You cannot use it, it is not a thing. It is not a means to anything else, how can you use it? I can understand the questioner’s mind. The so-called religions have been teaching people that prayer is a means to God. It is not! Prayer is God. It is not a means towards anything: to be prayerful is the end in itself. When you are prayerful, you are divine. Not that the prayer leads you towards the divine; in prayerfulness you discover your divinity. Prayer is not a means. It is the end unto itself. But this fallacy has persisted down the centuries in man’s mind. Love is also a means, so is prayer, so is meditation: all that is impossible to reduce to means has been reduced, and that’s why the beauty is lost. Love is useless, so is prayer, so is meditation. When you ask, ”Is prayer useful?” you don’t understand what the word prayer means. You are greedy, you want God, you want to grab God. Now you are finding ways and means to grab, and God cannot be grabbed! You cannot possess God. You cannot contain God. You cannot interpret God. You cannot experience God. Then what can be done about God? Only one thing: you can be God. Nothing else can be done about it, because you are God. Recognize it or not, realize it or not, but you are God. And only that can be done which is already there; only that can be done which has already happened. Nothing new can be added...only revelation, only discovery. So the first thing: prayer is not any utility. The moment you use prayer, you make it ugly. That is a sacrilege, to use prayer. And whosoever has said to you to use prayer has been not only irreligious but anti-religious. He does not understand what he is saying. He is talking nonsense. Be prayerful, not because it has some utility but because it is a joy. Be prayerful, not because through it you will arrive anywhere, but through it you are, through it you start being! Through it you are present, without it you are absent. It is not a goal somewhere in the future; it is a discovery of the presence that is already there, that is already the case. And don’t think in terms of things, otherwise prayer becomes part of economics, not part of religion. If it is a means, then it is part of economics. All means are part of economics, ends are beyond economics. Religion is concerned with the end, not with the means. Religion is not concerned at all with reaching somewhere. Religion is concerned only with one thing: to know where we are! To celebrate this moment is prayer. To be herenow is prayer. To listen to these birds is prayer. To feel the presence of people around you is prayer. To touch a tree with love is prayer. To look at a child with deep respect, with reverence for life, is prayer. So first thing...don’t ask, ”Is prayer useful?” And then the second thing you say: ”If so, teach me how to pray.” If you start by ’if’, prayer cannot be taught. The very beginning with ’if’ is the beginning of doubt. ’If’ is not part of a prayerful mind. Prayer needs trust; there is no if. It is so. It is absolutely so. When you can trust the unknown, the invisible, the unmanifest, then there is prayer. If you start by ’if’, then prayer will be at most a hypothesis. Then prayer will be a theory, and prayer is not a theory. Prayer is not a thing, not a theory; prayer is an experience. You cannot start by ’if’. The very beginning goes wrong, you have taken a step in the wrong direction. Drop ifs and you will be in prayer. Drop all ifs. Don’t live life through hypothetical things: ”If this is so, if there is God, then I will pray.” But how can you pray if God is just an if? If God is just ’as if’, then your prayer will also be just as if. It will be an empty gesture. You will bow down, you will utter a few words, but your heart will not be there. The heart is never with ifs. Science works through ifs. Religion does not work through ifs. You are asking: ”If there is love, then teach me love.” If there is love? Then nothing has stirred in your heart. Then the spring has not come and that breeze has not touched you which is called love. You must have heard somebody else talking about love. You must have read in some book, you must have been reading romantic poetry. The word love has come to you but there has been not a single moment of love experience. So you ask, ”If there is love, then teach us” but with ’if’ love cannot be taught. Have you never experienced any moment of love, prayer, beautitude? I have never come across a single human being who is so poor. Have you not ever listened to the silence of the night? Have you not ever been thrilled by it, touched by it, transformed by it? Have you never seen a sun rising on the horizon? Have you never felt a deep interrelationship with the rising sun, have you not felt more life in you, pouring from everywhere? Maybe for a moment.... Have you never held the hand of a human being and something started flowing from you to him and from him to you? Have you never experienced when two human spaces overlap and flow into each other? Have you never seen a roseflower and smelled the fragrance of it, and suddenly you are transported into another world? These are moments of prayer. Don’t start by ’if’. Gather all the moments of your life which were beautiful, they were all moments of prayer. Base your temple of prayer on those moments. Let that be the foundation, not if; the bricks of ’if’ are false. Build the foundation with certainties, with absolute certainties only then, only then is there a possibility of your ever entering into the world of prayer. It is a great world; it has a beginning, but it has no end. It is oceanic. So please don’t say, ”If so.” It is so! And if you have not yet felt it is so, then look into your life and find out some certainties about beauty, about love, about experiences which go beyond the mind. Collect all those. The ordinary habit of the mind is not to collect them, because they go against the logical mind. So we never take note of them. They happen, they happen to everybody. Let me repeat: Nobody is so poor, they happen to the poorest man. Man is made in such a way, man is in such a way...they are bound to happen. But we don’t take note of them because they are dangerous moments: if they are real, then what will happen to our logical mind? They are very illogical moments. Now listening to a bird and something starts singing within you this is very illogical. You cannot find out how it is happening, why it is happening why it should be so. The mind is at a loss. The only course left for the mind is not to take note of it, forget about it! It is just a whim, maybe some eccentric moment, maybe you have gone temporarily mad. The mind interprets these things like this... ”It was nothing, just a mood. You were emotional, you were being sentimental, that’s all; there was no authentic experience in it.” This is the way to deny. Once you start denying then you don’t have any moments to base your prayer life upon. Hence the question, ”If so....” My first suggestion is: Go into your life, remember all those moments. You must have been a small child collecting seashells on a beach, and the sun was showering on you, and the wind was salty and sharp, and you were in tremendous joy. No king has ever been so joyful; you were almost at the top of the world, you were an emperor. Remember...that is the right brick to base upon. You were a small child running after a butterfly that was the moment of prayer. For the first time you fell in love with a woman or a man, and your heart was churned and stirred, and you started dreaming in a new way.... That was the moment of prayer, your first love, your first friendship. Gather from your past a few certainties about something that goes beyond the mind, which the mind cannot interpret, which the mind cannot dissect, which is simply transcendental to the mind. Collect those transcendental moments even a few, they will do but then there will be no if. Then you move with certainty, then it is not a hypothesis. Then there is trust. If it could happen to you when you were a child, why can’t it happen to you now? Why? Gather those moments of wonder, when you were thrilled. Just the other day I was reading about a man, a very simple man, a very old man. The English philosopher, thinker, Doctor Johnson, was staying with the old man. And in the morning when they were taking their tea, the old man said, ”Doctor Johnson, you may be surprised to know that when young I also tried to become a philosopher.” Doctor Johnson asked, ”Then what happened? Why could you not become a philosopher?” The man laughed and he said, ”But cheerfulness again and again erupted into my life”...cheerfulness. ”Because of that cheerfulness I could not become a philosopher. Again and again, I tried hard to repress it!” I like that answer. Those moments of cheerfulness are moments of prayer. A philosopher cannot pray, a thinker cannot pray, because all thinking starts with if, all thinking starts with doubt. And prayer starts with trust. That’s why Jesus says: Only those who are like small children, only they will be able to enter into the kingdom of my God those whose eyes are full of wonder, for whom each moment is a moment of surprise; those whose hearts are still open to be thrilled, only they. So first drop if, and collect some certainties. That is the first lesson about prayer. The second thing you say: ”...teach me how to pray.” There is no how. Prayer is not a technique. Meditation can be taught; it is a technique, it is a method. Prayer is not a method, it is a love affair! You can pray, but prayer cannot be taught. It happened once: some of Jesus’ disciples asked him, ”Master, teach us to pray and teach us how.” And what did Jesus do, do you know? He acted exactly the way a Zen master is supposed to act: he simply fell on the ground, on his knees, and started praying! They were puzzled, they looked...they must have shrugged their shoulders: ”We have asked him to teach, and what is he doing? he is praying. But how can his praying help us?” Later on they must have asked, and Jesus said, ”But that is the only way; there is no technique!” Jesus prayed what else can you do? If they had been a little more alert they would have sat silently by the side of Jesus, holding his hands or touching his robe...contact high! Something would have happened there. I cannot teach you prayer, but I am prayer. And I need not fall on my knees to pray, I am prayer. You just imbibe my being, you drink me as much as you can, my presence, and it will teach you what prayer is. Every morning I am teaching you what prayer is! Every moment when you come to me I am teaching you what prayer is. I am in prayer. You just be a little open. Just open your doors, let my breeze pass through you. It is an infection. Prayer is an infection. I cannot teach you how to pray, but I can make you prayerful. Get more in tune with my presence. And don’t keep these questions inside your mind because they will be the barriers. Just be vulnerable...and it will happen. One day, suddenly you will see the heart is singing and something is dancing within you, some new energy, as if in a dark night a sudden ray of light has entered your being. That is prayer! you cannot do it, you can only allow it to happen. Meditation can be done, prayer cannot be done. Meditation is more scientific that way, it can be taught. But prayer? prayer is absolutely unscientific, it is a matter of the heart. Feel me, and you will feel prayer. Touch me, and you will touch prayer. Listen to me and you are listening to words which are full of prayer. And then, sometime sitting silently, let there be a dialogue, a dialogue with existence. You can call existence God or father or mother; all are okay. But don’t repeat any ritual. Don’t repeat the Christian prayer, and don’t repeat the Hindu prayer, don’t repeat the Gayatri Mantra and don’t repeat namokar. Don’t repeat any mantra, Indian, Tibetan, Chinese...don’t repeat! Create your own mantra, don’t be a parrot. Can’t you say something to God on your own? And don’t rehearse it, don’t prepare for it. Can’t you face God directly as a small child faces his father or mother? Can’t you say something to him? Can’t you say hello? Let prayer happen, don’t prepare for it. A prepared prayer is a false prayer, and a repeated prayer is just a mechanical thing. You can repeat the Christian prayer; you have crammed it, it has been forced upon you. You can repeat it in the night and fall asleep, but it will not make you aware, because it has not been done as a response! I have heard.... A great mathematician who used to pray every night with a single word: he would look at the sky and would say, ”Ditto.” What is the point of repeating every day the same as yesterday? What are you doing when you are repeating the same prayer again and again?...’ditto’ is better! Why bother God every day with the same repetition? Say something if you have something to say. If you don’t have something to say, just say, ”I don’t have anything to say today.” Or just be silent what is the need of saying? but be true. At least between you and the whole, let there be truth; that’s what prayer is. Open your heart. I have heard: Moses was passing through a forest and he came across a man, a shepherd, a poor man, a dirty, poor man, with rags for clothes. And he was praying; it was prayer time and he was praying. Moses, just out of curiosity, stood behind him and listened. And he could not believe what sort of prayer this was, because he was saying, ”God, when I die, allow me into your paradise I will take care of you. If you have lice, I will remove them.” He had lice, so certainly he says, ”If you have lice I will remove them. I will give you such a good bath, and I will cook food for you, and I cook really good things. And I will take care of your sheep. And I will prepare milk for you”...and this and that. ”And I can do good massage too!” Then it was too much. When he came to lice, then it was too much. Moses just shook him and said, ”What nonsense are you talking, you will remove lice! So God has lice?” The poor man was disturbed. He said, ”I don’t know exactly because I have never seen him. But all that I know is what I know about myself I have lice.” Moses said, ”Stop! Never pray in this way! This is sacrilege, you will fall into hell!” The man started trembling and perspiring. He said, ”But I have been doing this my whole life; whatsoever comes to my mind, I say. And I don’t know.... You teach me the right way.” And Moses teaches him the right way to pray, and the poor shepherd goes with his sheep. And then suddenly God thunders all over the forest, and God is very angry. He says to Moses, ”You are mad! I have sent you into the world to bring people to me, and you are throwing my people away from me. A lover...he was a lover. He was one of the best prayers, and you have broken his heart, you have broken his trust. You go and apologize, and take your prayer back!” And Moses goes and falls at the feet of the shepherd and says, ”Excuse me, forgive me! I was wrong, you are right. God approves of you; my prayer has to be taken back.” Exactly that’s how it should be. Let your prayer grow, let it happen. Yes, whenever you are feeling like having a chitchat with God, wait for those moments. And there is no need to repeat it every day there is no need. When the feeling comes, let it be out of your feeling. Don’t make a ritual out of it. Sometimes taking a bath, sitting under the shower, and you suddenly feel the urge to pray, let it be there. It is perfectly good; your bathroom is perfectly good, there is no need to go to any church. In that moment when the urge is there, your bathroom is the church. Let the prayer be there, have a little chitchat, and you will be surprised how beautiful it is. When it comes out of the heart it is heard, it is responded to.
Sometimes making love to your woman, suddenly an urge arises to pray pray that very moment! You cannot find a better moment than that; you are closest to God, you are closest to life energy. When the orgasm is showering on you...pray! But wait, don’t make it a ritual. That is the whole Tantra attitude: let things be spontaneous. And the last thing you say: ”I mean, prayer to receive God’s love, to feel his grace.” Again your question is wrong: ”I mean, prayer to receive God’s love.” You are greedy! Prayer is to love God. Yes, love comes from God a thousandfold, but that is not the desire. That is the outcome of it not the result but the consequence. Yes, love will come like a flood. You take one step towards God and God takes a thousand steps towards you. You give him one drop, offer him one drop of your love, and his whole ocean becomes available to you. Yes, that happens, but that should not be the desire; the desire is wrong. If you simply want God’s love, and that’s why you are praying, then your prayer is a bargain. Then it is business, and beware of business! In a small school somewhere in the United States, the teacher asks the boys: ”Who was the greatest man in human history?” Of course an American says, ”Abraham Lincoln,” and an Indian says, ”Mahatma Gandhi,” and an English boy says, ”Winston Churchill,” and so on and so forth. And then a small Jewish boy stands up and says, ”Jesus,” and he wins, he wins a reward. But the teacher asks him, ”You are a Jew, why did you say ’Jesus’?” He said, ”I know all the time in my heart it is Moses, but business is business.” Don’t make prayer a business. Let it be a pure offering. Just give it out of your heart, don’t ask anything in return. Then much comes...thousandfold, millionfold, God flows towards you. But again remember, it is a consequence, not a result.
Question 3 The third question: Osho, You mentioned Jung’s idea that men need two types of women. Historically, a lot of men seem to feel this way, while very few women seem to need more than one man at a time. Can there be something to this idea in male psychology? If so, why? The question is from Anand Prem. First thing: she says, ”Historically, a lot of men seem to feel this way....” History is just bunk. And history is created by men, no woman has written history. It is male-oriented, it is male-dominated, it is male-managed. It is a false history. Man has tried to condition woman in such a way that he can exploit her easily and she cannot even rebel. Slaves always have to be hypnotized in such a way that they cannot rebel. Man has conditioned the woman’s mind in such a way that she thinks the way man wants her to think. You say, ”Historically, a lot of men seem to feel this way” ...because men are more free, they are the masters. Women have lived like slaves; they have accepted the slavery. You have to throw that slavery completely, you have to come out of it. Just the other night I was reading that in the sixth century there was a great Christian conference of all the great Christian leaders to decide whether women have souls or not. Fortunately they decided that women do have souls, but only by one vote. It is not much of a victory. By the majority of one vote! just one vote less and historically you would not have any soul. It is not much, this soul. Man has crushed the whole psychology of women. And whatsoever you see is not really the psychology of women: it is man-made psychology, man-created psychology in women. The more free you will be, the more you will also feel the same way because men and women are not really so different as they have been thought to be. They are different! Their biology is different, and certainly their psychology is different, but they are not unequals. Their similarities are more than their dissimilarities. Just think, a man eating the same thing every day gets fed up; and a woman, will she get fed up with it or not? She will also get fed up. What is the difference between the two? Boredom is as natural to man as to woman. And unless a sexual relationship evolves into a spiritual friendship, it is going to be boring. Let it be very clear to you: a sexual relationship in itself cannot be a lasting affair, because as far as sex is concerned it is a momentary thing. Once you have made love to a woman, you are really finished with her, you are no longer interested in her. Unless something more than a sexual relationship arises between you, something higher, some spiritual contact is made.... It can be made through sex, it should be made, otherwise sexual relationship is just physical. If something spiritual, something like a spiritual marriage happens, then there will be no problem. Then you can stay together. And then whether you are a man or a woman you will not think of other women or other men. It is finished; you have found your soulmate. But if the relationship is only physical, then the body gets tired, bored. The body needs a thrill, the body needs the new, the body needs sensation. The body is always hankering for something new... An ATS driver, after a long journey across Salisbury Plain, arrived at her destination, a remote camp, at midnight. The sergeant of the guard showed her where to leave the lorry, and then said, ”Where will you sleep tonight?” The girl explained that the only thing she could do was to kip down in the cab. It was a cold night and the sergeant thought for a moment and said, ”If you like you can have my bunk, I’ll sleep on the floor.” The offer was accepted with thanks. After the girl had turned in, she felt very sorry for the sergeant lying down there on the hard cold floor, and leaning out said, ”This isn’t right why don’t you get up here and squeeze in alongside of me?” This being done, the sarge said, ”Well, how’s it to be? Do you want to sleep single or married?” The girl giggled and said, ”I think it would be nice if we slept married, don’t you?” ”Right, I’m not fussy, we’ll sleep married then,” he said, turning his back on her and going off to sleep. Marriage bores. That’s why you see so many bored faces all around the world: marriage is a tremendous boredom. Unless something spiritual happens in it, which is rare, so men start looking outside. Women will also look outside, but they have not been free. That’s why you find so many women prostitutes, but not so many male prostitutes. Yes, they exist in London I think, a few ...but male prostitutes are just almost nonexistent. Why? Prostitution is a by-product of marriage, and unless marriage disappears prostitution is going to remain. It is a by-product, it will go only with marriage. Now your so-called mahatmas have been trying to stop prostitution and these are the people who go on forcing marriage! And they don’t see the absurdity of it: prostitution exists because of marriage! In animals there is no prostitution because there is no marriage. Have you ever found any animal prostituting itself? There is no problem! Why should prostitution exist at all? That ugly thing exists because of one other ugly thing: marriage. But male prostitutes are not so many because women have not been free; they have been repressed completely. They have not even been allowed to have their sexual joy. They are not even supposed to have it. Only bad women are supposed to have sexual joy, not good women; not ladies, only women. Ladies are not supposed to have any joy, they are far superior. This is not real history; this is managed history, this is arranged history. And if you go on for thousands of years enforcing some idea, it becomes almost real. It is not true psychology. To know the true psychology, you will have to give women total freedom, and then see. And you will be surprised, they will be far ahead of men. You can watch them: a man almost always goes on wearing the same grey dress.... Women? every day they need a new sari. I watch their mind. If they are given total freedom, they will be far ahead of men! Men can go on...you can see, their clothes are not very colorful, and something like fashion does not exist as far as man is concerned. What fashion? The same grey official suit, the same tie; they don’t have much of a wardrobe. But women? The whole market exists for them! They are the real consumers. Man is the producer; woman is the consumer. Ninety percent of the things in the market exist for women. Why? They want new things more; they want new experiences, new thrills more. Maybe because their sexuality has been repressed it is a diversion of their energy. Because they cannot have a new husband, a new sari is a substitute, a new car is a substitute, a new house is a substitute. They put their energy somewhere else, but this is not reality. Women have been so much corrupted and destroyed that it is very difficult to decide what their real psychology is. Don’t listen to history. History is an ugly record, it is a record of long slavery; at least women should not listen to history. They should burn all history books, they should say that history has to be written again. You will be surprised that when you impose a certain idea, the mind starts functioning that way. Mind starts imitating ideas. It has been a long hypnosis the woman has lived in. But I am not saying that society should be just like animals. I am saying that sex should be a jumping board. If your relationship is defined by sex only and it has nothing more in it, then marriage will create prostitution. But if your marriage is deeper than your body, then there is no need. Each single human being, man or woman, is such an infinite space.... You can go on exploring, go on exploring, there is no end to it. Each human being, man or woman, each day is so alive and so new new leaves coming up, new flowers blooming, a new climate, new moods. If you love, if you are really intimate, you will never find the same old woman with you, and you will never find the same old man. Life is such a tremendous dynamism.... But you don’t love! You are stuck with the body. You don’t look in, you don’t look at the inner sky which is constantly changing.... What more change do you need? but you don’t look at that. Of course the body is the same, then it loses excitement. When excitement is lost, your life becomes boring. When you become bored you start seeking help, because you are getting neurotic. Your life is a drag. You go to the psychoanalyst in the past you used to go to the priest, now you go to the psychoanalyst you ask for help, something is going wrong. You don’t enjoy life, there is no delight; you start thinking of committing suicide. If you move with excitement, then you become criminals; if you stay with society, with the establishment, then you become bored. It is a great dilemma; you are not allowed to move anywhere! Between these two horns you are crushed and killed. Either live with the establishment, then you will live a bored life; or go anti-establishment, but then you look like a criminal, then you start feeling guilty. Women have to come to absolute freedom. And with the freedom of women, man will also be free because you cannot be really free if you are keeping somebody as a slave. A master is a slave of the slave. Man is not really free, because he cannot be. Half of humanity is forced to remain slaves how can man be free? His freedom is just so-so, just superficial. With the freedom of women, man will also be free. And with freedom there is a possibility to enter into a deeper relationship. And if that doesn’t happen then there is no need to remain bored; then there is no need to remain clinging to each other. A man who had felt unwell for some time went to his doctor and asked for a checkup. The doctor gave him a going over and said, ”Either you pack up smoking, drinking and sex, or you’ll be dead in twelve months.” After a while the man went back and said, ”Look, I’m so bloody miserable I might just as well be dead. Please can I smoke just a little?” ”Very well, just five filter-tips a day,” said the medico, who was a very abrupt man. Some weeks later the man was back again: ”Look here, I do miss my pint. Please...?” ”Alright, two halves a day then, and no spirits.” Time went by, and the patient approached the doctor for the third time.... Seeing the man, the doctor said, ”Yes, yes, but only with your wife no excitement!” Life needs excitement. If you cannot allow it to have spiritual excitement, it will need physical excitement. Give it a higher excitement and the lower excitements disappear, they are not needed. Don’t give it a higher excitement and the lower is the only available excitement. Man has tried to keep himself open. Jung is tricky, and what Jung is saying is the old crap. This has always been said by man, that a man needs two women at least: one, the mother type, the wife type; another, the mistress, the inspiration. If man needs two women, then women also need two men, the father type and the Don Juan. But what I am trying to say is that even in the twentieth century men like Freud and Jung are still as male chauvinistic as ever, not much difference. Women have to think for themselves; men cannot be of much help. They have to come to their own understanding, and now there is opportunity to come to their own understanding. But Anand Prem’s question is not basically about women, it is about her own mind. She is a clinging type, and that clinging is also because of the historical conditioning. The woman clings too much because she is afraid about insecurity, about safety, about finance, about this and that. She is too afraid; she has been made afraid! That is the trick of the man, to make the woman afraid. When the woman is afraid she can be easily dominated. You cannot dominate somebody who is not afraid, so create fear! First man creates fear in women about their virginity. He creates great fear that virginity is something very valuable. Down the centuries he has created that fear, so every girl is afraid...if she loses her virginity, all is lost. Through that fear she cannot relate to people, she cannot make friendships, she cannot move in freedom. She cannot have a few experiences before she decides whom to choose. The fear: she has to be virgin. Look at the distinction: they have not told the boys, ”You have to be virgin.” They say, ”Boys are boys.” And girls are not girls? Girls are girls too! Why are boys boys? Virginity is not asked from the boys, they are given freedom. Through virginity...a great conditioning...and once a woman becomes too afraid of losing her virginity.... Think: up to the twentieth year of age, twenty years she has been protecting her virginity, twenty years of conditioning she will become frigid. Then she will never enjoy! Then she will never be able to flow in love, she will never have any orgasm. Down the centuries, millions of women have not had any orgasm; they don’t know what orgasm is. They simply suffer, they are simply means for the man. This is a great degradation. But if virginity is too important, and there is twenty years of conditioning that one has to be a virgin and always on guard, then it will be very difficult to drop that habit. How can you suddenly drop it after twenty years of conditioning? Just one day it is the honeymoon and you have to drop it. How can you drop it? You can only pretend. But deep down you think your husband a criminal, a beast, an ugly man, because he is doing something which you know is a sin. You never allowed any other man...love is sin, and this man is doing that! No wife is ever capable of forgiving the husband. In fact in India particularly, no woman respects the husband, cannot...shows all respect but cannot respect. Deep down she hates the man because this is the man who is dragging her into sin. How can you respect the husband when he is the sinner? Without him you were a virgin; with him you have fallen. That’s why the society teaches so much, ”Respect the husband,” because the society knows naturally the woman will not be able to respect him, so respect has to be forced.... Respect the husband! ...Because if things go naturally, then she will hate this man. This is the man who is preparing hell for her. And out of this sin are born children. How can you love your children? Born out of sin, you will hate them too, deep down in the unconscious. The very presence of the children will remind you again and again of the sin that you have committed. The whole society has suffered because of this foolishness. Love is virtue, not sin. And to be capable of more love is to be more virtuous; to be capable of enjoying love is a basic quality of a religious man. These are my definitions. Anand Prem is a great clinger, and she thinks that whatsoever is true about her is true about all women. In a way she is right, because all other women have been conditioned in the same way, but it is not true. Neither about other women nor about you, Anand Prem, is it the truth. Become capable of being individuals: then you will have some taste of freedom. A woman is never thought of as an individual. When she is small she is a daughter, when she is young she is a wife, when she becomes a little older she is a mother, still older she is a grandmother, but she is never herself. Sometimes a daughter, sometimes a wife, sometimes a mother, sometimes a grandmother, but never herself, always in relation to somebody else! Individuality is needed as a basic requirement. A woman is a woman! Her being a daughter is secondary, her being a wife is secondary, her being a mother is secondary. A woman is a woman, her womanhood is primary. And when women start becoming individuals, there will be a totally different world, more beautiful, more joyous. Now there is boredom and jealousy, nothing else. You are bored with the woman, the woman is bored with you; you are jealous, she is jealous. Why does this jealousy come as a shadow of boredom? Boredom brings it. Too many people come to me and they want not to be jealous, but they don’t understand why jealousy comes, they don’t understand the mechanism of it. Listen: when you are bored with a woman, you know deep down that she must be bored with you too. That’s natural! If she is bored with you, then she must be looking for some other man somewhere the milkman, the postman, the driver, whosoever is available she must be looking somewhere. You know when you are bored you start looking at other women, so you know; this is a natural inference. Jealousy arises. So you become jealous she must be looking then you start finding ways to see whether she is looking or not. And naturally how can she avoid looking? There are so many men, and she is bored with you. It is her life; her whole life is at stake. The woman is jealous; she knows that the husband is bored. Now he is not so delighted as he used to be; now he does not come running home with joy. Now he simply tolerates her. In fact, he is more interested in his newspaper than he is interested in her. He immediately gets irritated...small things and he becomes very, very angry and rough. All that softness, that honeymoon softness, is gone. She knows he is bored, he is no longer interested in her. Then suddenly, certainly she knows, her instinct knows, he must be becoming interested somewhere else. Jealousy. Then if some day he comes home happy, she is worried: he must have been with some woman, otherwise why is he looking so happy? If he goes for a holiday, or if he goes for some business trip, she is worried. If he starts going too much for business trips, it becomes more certain.... Jealousy poisons the relationship, but it is part of boredom! If you are not bored with the person you will not be jealous because you will not have that idea in your mind. It is not, in fact, because of the other’s interest in the other: it is because of your interest in the other that you become jealous, that jealousy arises. A man who had felt unwell for some time went to his doctor and asked for a checkup. The doctor gave him a going over and said, ”Either you pack up smoking, drinking and sex, or you’ll be dead in twelve months.” After a while the man went back and said, ”Look, I’m so bloody miserable I might just as well be dead. Please can I smoke just a little?” ”Very well, just five filter-tips a day,” said the medico, who was a very abrupt man. Some weeks later the man was back again: ”Look here, I do miss my pint. Please...?” ”Alright, two halves a day then, and no spirits.” Time went by, and the patient approached the doctor for the third time.... Seeing the man, the doctor said, ”Yes, yes, but only with your wife no excitement!” Life needs excitement. If you cannot allow it to have spiritual excitement, it will need physical excitement. Give it a higher excitement and the lower excitements disappear, they are not needed. Don’t give it a higher excitement and the lower is the only available excitement.
Man has tried to keep himself open. Jung is tricky, and what Jung is saying is the old crap. This has always been said by man, that a man needs two women at least: one, the mother type, the wife type; another, the mistress, the inspiration. If man needs two women, then women also need two men, the father type and the Don Juan. But what I am trying to say is that even in the twentieth century men like Freud and Jung are still as male chauvinistic as ever, not much difference. Women have to think for themselves; men cannot be of much help. They have to come to their own understanding, and now there is opportunity to come to their own understanding. But Anand Prem’s question is not basically about women, it is about her own mind. She is a clinging type, and that clinging is also because of the historical conditioning. The woman clings too much because she is afraid about insecurity, about safety, about finance, about this and that. She is too afraid; she has been made afraid! That is the trick of the man, to make the woman afraid. When the woman is afraid she can be easily dominated. You cannot dominate somebody who is not afraid, so create fear! First man creates fear in women about their virginity. He creates great fear that virginity is something very valuable. Down the centuries he has created that fear, so every girl is afraid...if she loses her virginity, all is lost. Through that fear she cannot relate to people, she cannot make friendships, she cannot move in freedom. She cannot have a few experiences before she decides whom to choose. The fear: she has to be virgin. Look at the distinction: they have not told the boys, ”You have to be virgin.” They say, ”Boys are boys.” And girls are not girls? Girls are girls too! Why are boys boys? Virginity is not asked from the boys, they are given freedom. Through virginity...a great conditioning...and once a woman becomes too afraid of losing her virginity.... Think: up to the twentieth year of age, twenty years she has been protecting her virginity, twenty years of conditioning she will become frigid. Then she will never enjoy! Then she will never be able to flow in love, she will never have any orgasm. Down the centuries, millions of women have not had any orgasm; they don’t know what orgasm is. They simply suffer, they are simply means for the man. This is a great degradation. But if virginity is too important, and there is twenty years of conditioning that one has to be a virgin and always on guard, then it will be very difficult to drop that habit. How can you suddenly drop it after twenty years of conditioning? Just one day it is the honeymoon and you have to drop it. How can you drop it? You can only pretend. But deep down you think your husband a criminal, a beast, an ugly man, because he is doing something which you know is a sin. You never allowed any other man...love is sin, and this man is doing that! No wife is ever capable of forgiving the husband. In fact in India particularly, no woman respects the husband, cannot...shows all respect but cannot respect. Deep down she hates the man because this is the man who is dragging her into sin. How can you respect the husband when he is the sinner? Without him you were a virgin; with him you have fallen. That’s why the society teaches so much, ”Respect the husband,” because the society knows naturally the woman will not be able to respect him, so respect has to be forced.... Respect the husband! ...Because if things go naturally, then she will hate this man. This is the man who is preparing hell for her. And out of this sin are born children. How can you love your children? Born out of sin, you will hate them too, deep down in the unconscious. The very presence of the children will remind you again and again of the sin that you have committed. The whole society has suffered because of this foolishness. Love is virtue, not sin. And to be capable of more love is to be more virtuous; to be capable of enjoying love is a basic quality of a religious man. These are my definitions. Anand Prem is a great clinger, and she thinks that whatsoever is true about her is true about all women. In a way she is right, because all other women have been conditioned in the same way, but it is not true. Neither about other women nor about you, Anand Prem, is it the truth. Become capable of being individuals: then you will have some taste of freedom. A woman is never thought of as an individual. When she is small she is a daughter, when she is young she is a wife, when she becomes a little older she is a mother, still older she is a grandmother, but she is never herself. Sometimes a daughter, sometimes a wife, sometimes a mother, sometimes a grandmother, but never herself, always in relation to somebody else! Individuality is needed as a basic requirement. A woman is a woman! Her being a daughter is secondary, her being a wife is secondary, her being a mother is secondary. A woman is a woman, her womanhood is primary. And when women start becoming individuals, there will be a totally different world, more beautiful, more joyous. Now there is boredom and jealousy, nothing else. You are bored with the woman, the woman is bored with you; you are jealous, she is jealous. Why does this jealousy come as a shadow of boredom? Boredom brings it. Too many people come to me and they want not to be jealous, but they don’t understand why jealousy comes, they don’t understand the mechanism of it.
Listen: when you are bored with a woman, you know deep down that she must be bored with you too. That’s natural! If she is bored with you, then she must be looking for some other man somewhere the milkman, the postman, the driver, whosoever is available she must be looking somewhere. You know when you are bored you start looking at other women, so you know; this is a natural inference. Jealousy arises. So you become jealous she must be looking then you start finding ways to see whether she is looking or not. And naturally how can she avoid looking? There are so many men, and she is bored with you. It is her life; her whole life is at stake. The woman is jealous; she knows that the husband is bored. Now he is not so delighted as he used to be; now he does not come running home with joy. Now he simply tolerates her. In fact, he is more interested in his newspaper than he is interested in her. He immediately gets irritated...small things and he becomes very, very angry and rough. All that softness, that honeymoon softness, is gone. She knows he is bored, he is no longer interested in her. Then suddenly, certainly she knows, her instinct knows, he must be becoming interested somewhere else. Jealousy. Then if some day he comes home happy, she is worried: he must have been with some woman, otherwise why is he looking so happy? If he goes for a holiday, or if he goes for some business trip, she is worried. If he starts going too much for business trips, it becomes more certain.... Jealousy poisons the relationship, but it is part of boredom! If you are not bored with the person you will not be jealous because you will not have that idea in your mind. It is not, in fact, because of the other’s interest in the other: it is because of your interest in the other that you become jealous, that jealousy arises. Of course women are more jealous because they are less free, their boredom is more fixed. They know the man goes out; he has more possibilities, opportunities. They are encaged in the home, imprisoned in the home with the kids, it is difficult for them to have so much freedom. They feel jealous. The more they feel jealous, the more they cling. Fear arises. If the man leaves them, what will happen? A slave becomes more attached to his safety than to his freedom. A slave becomes more attached to his security than to his freedom. That’s what has happened. It has nothing to do with feminine psychology, Prem. Yes, I understand; it has happened to woman. It is an ugly phenomenon. It has to be dropped, it should not be so in the future if men and women become a little more aware. And both are living in hell.... The squire and his lady were chief patrons of the Agricultural Show, and after the opening ceremony they dutifully walked round, mixing with the tenants and peasantry and looking at the exhibits. But his lordship spent so much time in the beer tent that her ladyship wandered off to admire the prize bull. Never was a male animal so splendidly equipped. ”My, but that’s a fine beast you have there, Giles,” she said to the yokel in charge. ”Yes, my lady, he be champion, and father o’ champions.” ”Go on, tell me about him.” ”Well, ma’am, this here bull went to stud three hundred times last year.” ”Indeed? Well, go over to his Lordship will you, my good fellow, and tell him there’s a bull here went to stud three hundred times in one year, will you.” Giles dutifully trotted up to the squire and gave the message.... ”Very interesting indeed,” was his lordship’s comment, ”Always the same cow, I presume?” ”Oh, no indeed, sir, three hundred different cows.” ”Aha! Go and tell her ladyship that, will you.” Animals are so happy because they don’t have any institution to live in. And, mind you, I am not against marriage; I am for a higher marriage. I am against this marriage because this marriage has created prostitution. I am for a higher marriage. If you can find the intimacy, spiritual intimacy with a man or woman, then there will be a natural togetherness; no law is needed to enforce it. Then there will be a spontaneous joy in being together. While it lasts, good; when it disappears, there is no point in being together, no point at all! Then you are crushing each other, killing each other; then you are either a masochist or a sadist, you are neurotic. If my idea some day prevails which seems very difficult, because man has become so accustomed to dead roles that he has forgotten how to live if some day life prevails and man becomes courageous enough to live dangerously, then there will be real marriages. Then you will find many soulmates together. There will be no prostitution. Of course the larger part of humanity will go on changing partners, but nothing is wrong in it. The only problem that arises again and again in the minds of men and women is: What about kids? That is not a big problem. My conception is that of a commune, not of a family. Families have to disappear. Communes should exist.
For example, this is a commune. Kids should belong to the commune, and the commune should take care of the kids. The mother should be known, who the mother is, but the father should not be known; there is no need. That was the original state of humanity, matriarchal. Then society became patriarchal, father became important and with the father came a thousand and one illnesses. The greatest illness has been private property; it came with father, and the society will suffer from private property until father disappears. A commune where kids belong to the commune, where the commune can take care of them. The mother will look after them, but the mother can trust one thing: that she can move from one man to another, there is no problem in it. The kids should be taken care of; even if she dies, the commune is there. And when the property belongs to the commune and not to any individual, there will be real communism. Even in Soviet Russia real communism does not exist. It cannot exist with the father, it is impossible. Private property came with the family, with the nuclear family father, mother, kids then private property came. Private property can go only when this nuclear family disappears and a totally new concept of commune arrives. It is possible now. The world has come to that state of consciousness where communes can exist, and through communes, communism. It is not otherwise. Not that communism comes first, it is not possible. If communism comes first, it will bring only dictatorship. It will bring only an ugly society as it has happened in Soviet Russia or is happening in China. First let there be communal life as far as sex is concerned, then property will disappear. Property is part of sexual possession. When you possess a woman, you possess property; when you possess a man, you possess property you have to possess property. When you don’t possess any human being, who bothers to possess property? Then property is to be used, there is no need to possess. And it is easier to use it without possessing it, because people who possess cannot use it they are always afraid, they are miserly. Property can be used more freely. But first the family has to disappear. I am not saying that all families will disappear. Only spiritual families will remain; non-spiritual families will disappear. But it is good, because those people who are not spiritual enough, why should they be forced to remain bored? Why should they be forced to remain in a relationship which does not lead to any joy? Why? This is criminal. Question 4 The fourth question: Osho, I used to think that I am pretty aware, pretty surrendered. That image still crosses my mind, but I don’t really believe in it. And all this makes me wonder that maybe all your talk of awareness and surrender is just to drive us crazy like a carrot in front of a donkey, and that none of it really exists and that makes me feel angry, stupid and indifferent all at once. The carrot exists...and the donkey does not. Now it is up to you to choose: you can be a donkey, then the carrot does not exist. If you look at the carrot, the carrot exists and the donkey disappears. Naturally if you think the carrot does not exist, you will feel angry, stupid and indifferent, because you will be the donkey. Rather than thinking that the carrot does not exist, why don’t you look inside yourself? Do you exist? My whole emphasis is: Enlightenment exists, you don’t exist! Awareness exists, ego does not exist! That is my whole emphasis. But still the choice is yours, it is up to you. If you want to choose misery, then misery is possible only with the ego. Then you have to choose the ego, then you have to choose the donkey. Then you have to go on believing that the carrot does not exist. But it exists! And once you start feeling the carrot, you will start seeing that the donkey is disappearing: it was just an idea. With the carrot there is bliss. With the ego there is only hell. Choose whatsoever you want to choose. Question 5 The fifth question: Osho, Before I met you, I was miserable and totally unaware. Now I am miserable with some degree of awareness. What’s new? Can’t you see it? That ”some degree of awareness” do you think it is valueless? That is the first ray...and the sun is not far away. If you catch hold of the ray, if you move in the direction the ray is coming from, you will reach to the very source of light. If even one ray exists in darkness, it is enough proof of light, of God. Don’t call it ”some degree of awareness.” But I understand. We have lived unaware so long, we have lived unconsciously so long, we have lived like machines so long, that even when a little awareness comes our old habits are so heavy, so big.... There was once a young woman joined the ATS and went for her medical. The doctor had her strip off, and then called over his assistant: ”Look at that the biggest navel I’ve ever seen in all my career!” The young doctor looked and said, ”By George, girl, that’s a huge navel! Can I take a photograph of it for the medical press?” The girl was fed up and could not understand what all this was in aid of. ”You’d have a big navel if you’d been in the Salvation Army for as many years as I have.” This only heightened the mystery. ”The Salvation Army? What’s that got to do with it?” ”I carried the banner for ten years!” And you have been carrying the banner for millions of lives, so the navel has become very big. The unconsciousness is all your biography; all that you know about yourself is nothing but unconsciousness. So even when a ray of light enters, first you cannot trust it maybe you are looking at a dream, illusion, projection? Maybe there is some trick in it? Even if you trust it, it looks so small against your great past that you cannot trust that it is going to help in any way. But let me tell you one thing: A small candle is more powerful than all the darkness upon all the planets. Darkness has no power; darkness is impotent. A small candle is potential because it is! Darkness is just an absence.... A man came to the surgery covered with blood and bruises. ”What is the matter?” said the doctor. ”It’s my wife another of her nightmares.” ”Don’t talk daft man! She might have kicked you, but not these injuries!” ”Listen, doc, she had one of her nightmares...she shouted out, ’Get out, quick, my husband is coming home!’ And me being only half awake, naturally I jumped straight out of the window.” It is a long, old habit of being unconscious. But look at that ”some degree of awareness,” focus yourself on it that is your hope. Through that small ray opens the door. Can’t you see it? You ask me what is new?
Question 6 The sixth question: Osho, I am a Catholic Christian. I love your talks, but when you say something which goes against my religion then I am terribly upset. What should I do? There are three things: First, only listen to that which suits you, don’t listen to that which goes against you. That’s what many are doing. Otherwise it is going to be a rough journey. But when you are here listening it is difficult how to avoid that? In fact before you know it is against you, you have listened to it. Then you need to do something which professors know how to do, pundits, scholars know how to do. When you listen to something which goes against you, first think that it is trivial. It does not matter, it is not very relevant; it does not change your mind. It is a small thing. Maybe a little difference in the details, but basically Osho agrees with you; keep that in mind. It happened.... A woman went to the doctor and complained she could not get passionate. The doctor examined her and told her that if she would follow his special diet she would get very randy. This was agreed, but after a few weeks she was back and said, ”There’s something gone wrong! Last night I got so passionate I chewed my boyfriend’s ear off.” ”Oh, don’t worry about that trifle,” said the doctor, ”it’s only protein, no carbohydrates.” This is the first way, that only in small details...it is nothing very important, you need not worry. That will help you and you will not get so upset. The second thing is: interpret. That’s what Saraha goes on saying: Be interpretative! Interpret it in such a way that it comes closer to your idea. That can always be done; a little skill is needed, a little logic, a little play with words, that’s all. It is not much of a problem, you can manage it. If you have really been a Catholic it will not be difficult at all. Listen to this.... The Irish navvies were digging the road outside a house full of made-up floozies. A parson came along, pulled down his hat and went in. Says Pat to Mike, ”Did you see that? Just what you’d expect with one of them parsons!” Soon after a rabbi arrived, turned up his collar, and in he went. Says Mike to Pat, ”Is it not a terrible thing that the priest of God’s Own People should go in there?” Lastly a Catholic priest arrived, wrapped his cloak round his head and dived quickly into the bawdy house. ”Pat, isn’t that dreadful now? To think that one of the girls must have been taken ill!”
This is an interpretation. When the rabbi goes, it is something else; when the parson goes, it is something else; when the Catholic priest arrives...you can change the interpretation, there is no problem in it; now some girl seems to be ill.... This is the second way to avoid me. And the third way is: Think that this guy here is mad. That is the surest of all; if nothing else works, that works. Just think that this man is mad! only a madman can say things against Catholicism. That will help you, and will not upset you at all. The newly-appointed priest thought he’d walk this vast parish and meet the flock. One day he followed a dusty track for miles to find a devout family with fourteen children. ”Good day, Connelly! You’re a credit to Ireland: the biggest family in the parish.” ”Good day, father! But this is not the biggest family in the parish that’s Doylan, over the hill.” It was a tired priest who greeted Doylan and his sixteen children: ”God bless all these eighteen little Catholics,” he said. ”Sorry, father, but this is a Protestant family!” ”Then I’ll go at once,” said the priest, ”for it’s nothing but a dirty sex maniac that ye are!” If I go with you, think ”this man is great”; if I don’t go with you, think ”this man is mad” that will help you. These are the tricks others are playing and not getting upset. Now you know the secrets, you can do that too. But if your whole effort is not to get upset, then why are you here? My whole effort here is to make you as much upset as possible. Then why go with me at all? Unless I upset you, I cannot transform you. Unless I destroy you, I cannot create you. Unless I am very drastic, there is no way, no hope for you. It is my compassion that I go on hammering on your head because that is the only way! And I have to hammer too much... what can I do? You have such thick heads. Something upsets you because something true comes into your vision; otherwise it will not upset you. Always remember, anything upsetting you is valuable. Think over it, meditate over it, allow it to have its whole say...contemplate over it. Let it be there present in your being long so that you can look at it from all the angles possible because something upsetting simply means that something has made you aware that whatsoever you have been believing up to now is just a lie. Only truth upsets. Only truth destroys, because only truth can create. I am a chaos...and if you are really going to be with me, you have to pass through chaos. That’s what Saraha says, that’s what Tantra is all about: destructuring, taking your character away, taking your ideology away, taking your mind away. It is surgical. I am helpless. I have to do it. And I know it is a very thankless job. Question 7 The last question: Osho, What is samsara? Samsara is this story.... The London fog was swirling over the Thames as a young tramp settled himself on the embankment for the night. Suddenly he was roused by a gentle voice, and looking up saw a beautiful brunette alighting from her chauffeur-driven Rolls Royce. ”My poor man,” she said, ”you must be terribly cold and wet. Let me drive you to my home and put you up for the night.” Of course the tramp didn’t refuse this invitation and climbed into the car beside her. After a short drive the car stopped before a large Victorian mansion and the brunette stepped out, beckoning the tramp to follow her. The door was opened by the butler, into whose charge the lady gave the tramp, with instructions that he should be given a meal, a bath and a comfortable bed in the servants’ quarters. Some while later, as the brunette was preparing to retire, it occurred to her that her guest might be in need of something, so slipping on her negligee she hurried along to the servants’ wing. As she rounded the corner a chink of light met her eye, indicating that the young man was awake. Knocking softly on the door she entered the room and inquired of the young man why he was not sleeping. ”Surely you are not hungry?” ”Oh no, your butler fed me royally.” ”Then perhaps your bed is not comfortable?” ”But it is soft and warm.” ”Then you must need company. Move over a little....” The young man, overjoyed, moved over...and fell into the Thames! Enough for today. Tantric Transformation
Chapter 1 The Tantra Map
Audio:Yes Video:No Length:99 mins For the delights of kissing the deluded crave declaring it to be the ultimately real like a man who leaves his house and standing at the door asks a woman for reports of sensual delights. The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness has given artificial rise to pleasures in so many ways. Such yogis from affliction faint for they have fallen from celestial space, inveigled into vice. As a brahmin, who with rice and butter makes a burnt offering in blazing fire creating a vessel for nectar from celestial space, takes this, through wishful thinking, as the ultimate. Some people, who have kindled the inner heat and raised it to the fontanel, stroke the uvula with the tonguein a sort of coition and confuse that which fetters with what gives release, in pride will call themselves yogis. Tantra is freedom freedom from all mind-constructs, from all mind-games; freedom from all structures freedom from the other. Tantra is a space to be. Tantra is liberation. Tantra is not a religion in the ordinary sense. Religion again is a mind-game, religion gives you a certain pattern. A Christian has a certain pattern, so has the Hindu, so has the Muslim. Religion gives you a certain style, a discipline. Tantra takes all disciplines away. When there is no discipline, when there is no enforced order, a totally different kind of order arises in you. What Lao Tzu calls Tao, what Buddha calls dhamma that arises in you. That is not anything done by you, it happens to you; Tantra simply creates a space for it to happen. It does not even invite, it does not wait; it simply creates a space. And when the space is ready, the whole flows in. I have heard a very beautiful story, a very ancient one.... In a province no rain had fallen for a long time. Everything was dried up; at last the citizens decided to fetch the rainmaker. A deputation was sent to see him in the distant town where he lived, with the urgent request to come as soon as possible and make rain for their parched fields. The rainmaker, a wise old man, promised to do so on condition that he be provided with a solitary little cottage in the open country where he could withdraw by himself for three days; no food or drink would be required. Then he would see what could be done. His requests were met. On the evening of the third day abundant rain fell, and full of praise a grateful crowd made a pilgrimage to his house and exclaimed, ”How did you do it? Tell us.” ”It was quite simple,” the rainmaker answered. ”For three days all I have done is to put myself in order. For I know that once I am in order, then the world will be in order, and the drought must yield place to the rain.” Tantra says: If you are in order, then the whole world is in order for you. When you are in harmony, then the whole existence is in harmony for you. When you are in disorder, then the whole world is disorder. And the order has not to be a false one, it has not to be a forced one. When you force some order upon yourself, you simply become split; deep down the disorder continues. You can observe it: if you are an angry person you can force your anger, you can repress it deep down in the unconscious; but it is not going to disappear. Maybe you become completely unaware of it, but it is there and you know that it is there. It is running underneath you, it is in the dark basement of your being, but it is there. On top of it you can sit smiling, but you know it can erupt any moment. And your smile cannot be very deep, and your smile cannot be true, and your smile will be just an effort that you will be making against yourself. A man who forces an order from the outside remains in disorder. Tantra says: There is another kind of order. You don’t impose any order, you don’t impose any discipline; you simply drop all structures, you simply become natural and spontaneous. It is the greatest step a man can be asked to take. It will need great courage because the society will not like it, the society will be dead against it. The society wants a certain order. If you follow the society, the society is happy with you. If you go a little bit astray here and there, the society is very angry. And the mob is mad. Tantra is a rebellion. I don’t call it revolutionary, because it has no politics in it. And I don’t call it revolutionary, because it has no plans to change the world, it has no plans to change the state and the society. It is rebellious, it is individual rebellion. It is one individual slipping out of the structures and the slavery. But the moment you slip out of the slavery you come to feel another kind of existence around you which you have never felt before as if you were living with a blindfold and suddenly the blindfold has become loose, your eyes have opened and you can see a totally different world. This blindfold is what you call your mind your thinking, your prejudices, your knowledge, your scriptures; they all make the thick layer of a blindfold. They are keeping you blind, they are keeping you dull, they are keeping you unalive.
Tantra wants you to be alive as alive as the trees, as alive as the rivers, as alive as the sun and the moon. That is your birthright. You don’t gain anything by losing it; you lose all. And if everything is to be lost in gaining it, nothing is lost. Even a single moment of utter freedom is enough to satisfy. And a long life of a hundred years, yoked like a slave, is meaningless. To be in the world of Tantra needs courage, it is adventurous. Up to now only a few people have been able to move on that path. But the future is very hopeful. Tantra will become more and more important. Man is understanding more and more what slavery is, and man is understanding also that no political revolution has proved revolutionary. All political revolutions finally turn into anti-revolutions. Once they are in power they become anti-revolutionary. Power is anti-revolutionary. So there is a built-in mechanism in power: give anybody power and he becomes anti-revolutionary. Power creates its own world. So up to now there have been many revolutions in the world and all have failed, utterly failed; no revolution has helped. Now man is becoming aware of it. Tantra gives a different perspective. It is not revolutionary, it is rebellious. Rebellion means individual. You can rebel alone, you need not organize a party for it. You can rebel alone, on your own. It is not a fight against society, remember; it is just going beyond society. It is not anti-social, it is asocial; it has nothing to do with society. It is not against slavery, it is for freedom freedom to be. Just look at your life. Are you a free man? You are not: there are a thousand and one bondages around you. You may not look at them, it is very embarrassing; you may not recognize them, it hurts. But it doesn’t change the situation: you are a slave. To move into the dimension of Tantra you will have to recognize your slavery. It is very deep-rooted; it has to be dropped, and being aware of it helps you to drop it. Don’t go on pacifying yourself, don’t go on consoling yourself, don’t go on saying, ”Everything is okay.” It is not: nothing is okay, your whole life is just a nightmare. Have a look at it! There is no poetry and no song and no dance and no love and no prayer. There is no celebration. Joy? it is just a word in the dictionary. Bliss? yes, you have heard about it, but you have not known anything about it. God? in the temples, in the churches. Yes, people talk about it. Those who talk, they don’t know; those who hear, they don’t know. All that is beautiful seems to be meaningless, and all that is meaningless seems to be very, very important. A man goes on accumulating money and thinks that he is doing something very significant. Human stupidity is infinite. Beware of it, it will destroy your whole life; it has destroyed millions of people’s lives down the ages. Take hold of your awareness that is the only possibility to get out of stupidity. Before we enter today’s sutras, something has to be understood about the Tantra map of inner consciousness. I have told you a few things about it; a few more things have to be told. First: Tantra says that no man is just man and no woman is just woman. Each man is both man and woman, and so is each woman woman and man. Adam has Eve in him, and Eve has Adam in her. In fact nobody is just Adam and nobody is just Eve, we are Adam-Eves. This is one of the greatest insights ever attained. Modern depth psychology has become aware of it, they call it bisexuality. But for at least five thousand years Tantra has known it, preached it. It is one of the greatest discoveries of the world, because with this understanding you can move in your inner direction; otherwise you cannot move in your inner direction. Why does a man fall in love with a woman? because he carries a woman inside him, otherwise he would not fall in love. And why do you fall in love with a certain woman? There are thousands of women, but why, suddenly, does a certain woman become most important to you, as if all other women had disappeared and that were the only woman in the world? Why? Why does a certain man attract you? Why at first sight does something suddenly click? Tantra says: You are carrying an image of a woman inside you, an image of a man inside you. Each man is carrying a woman and each woman is carrying a man. When somebody on the outside fits with your inner image, you fall in love that is the meaning of love. You don’t understand it, you simply shrug your shoulders, you say, ”It has happened.” But there is a subtle mechanism in it. Why did it happen with a certain woman, why not with others? Your inner image fits somehow, the outer woman is similar in a way. Something just hits your inner image. You feel, ”This is my woman,” or ”This is my man”; this feeling is what love is. But the outer woman is not going to satisfy, because no outer woman is going to completely fit with your inner woman. The reality is not that way at all. Maybe she fits a little bit there is an appeal, a magnetism, but it will be worn out sooner or later. Soon you will recognize that there are a thousand and one things that you don’t like in the woman. It will take a little time to come to know about those things. First you will be infatuated. First the similarity will be too much, it will overwhelm you. But by and by you will see that there are a thousand and one things, details of life, that don’t fit; that you are aliens, strangers. Yes, you still love her, but the love has no more infatuation, that romantic vision is disappearing. And she will also recognize that something appeals in you, but your totality is not appealing. That’s why each husband tries to change the wife and each wife tries to change the husband. What are they trying to do? Why? Why does a wife continuously try to change the husband? For what? She has fallen in love with this man, then immediately she starts changing this man? Now she has become aware of the dissimilarities. She wants to drop those dissimilarities; she wants to take a few chunks off this man so that he completely fits with her idea of a man. And the husband tries also not so hard, not so stubbornly as women try, because the husband becomes tired very soon the woman hopes longer. The woman thinks, ”Today or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow some day I will change....” It takes almost twenty, twenty-five years to recognize the fact that you cannot change the other. By the age of fifty, when the woman has passed her menopause and the man too, when they are getting really old, then they become alert by and by that nothing has changed. They have tried hard, they have tried every way...the woman remains the same and the man remains the same. Nobody can change anybody. This is a great experience to come to, a great understanding. That’s why old people become more tolerant: they know that nothing can be done. That’s why old people become more graceful: they know that things are as they are. That’s why old people become more accepting. Young people are very angry, nonaccepting; they want to change everything, they want to make the world the way they would like it. They struggle hard, but it has never happened. It cannot happen, it is not in the nature of things. The outer man can never fit with your inner man and the outer woman can never be absolutely the same as your inner woman. That’s why love gives pleasure and pain too, love gives happiness and unhappiness too. And the unhappiness is much more than the happiness. What does Tantra propose about it, what has to be done then? Tantra says: There is no way to be satisfied with the outer; you will have to move inwards. You will have to find your inner woman and inner man, you will have to attain to a sexual intercourse inside. That is a great contribution. How can it happen? Try to understand this map. I talked about seven chakras, the Yoga-Tantra physiology. In man the muladhar is male and swadhishthan, female. In woman the muladhar is female and swadhishthan, male, and so on and so forth. In seven chakras, up to the sixth, the duality remains; the seventh is nondual. There are three pairs inside you: muladhar-swadhishthan have to get married. Manipura-anahata have to get married. Vishuddha-agya have to get married. When the energy moves outside, you need a woman outside. You have a little glimpse for a moment, because the coition with a woman outside cannot be permanent, it can be only momentary. For a single moment you can lose yourself in each other. Again you are thrown back to yourself, and thrown back with a vengeance. That’s why after each lovemaking there is a certain frustration: you have failed again, it didn’t happen the way you wanted it to happen. Yes, you reached to a peak, but before you had even become aware of it the decline, the fall began. Before the peak was achieved, the valley. Before you had met the woman or the man... and the separation. The divorce comes with marriage so fast that it is frustrating. All lovers are frustrated people: they hope much, they hope against their experience, they hope again and again but nothing can be done. You cannot destroy the laws of reality. You have to understand those laws. The outer meeting can only be momentary, but the inner meeting can become eternal. And the higher you move the more eternal it can become. The first, muladhar, in man is male. Even while making love to a woman outside, Tantra says, remember the inner. Make love to the woman outside, but remember the inner. Let your consciousness move inwards. Forget the outer woman completely. In the moment of orgasm forget the woman or the man completely. Close your eyes and be in, and let it be a meditation. When energy is stirred, don’t miss this opportunity. That is the moment when you can have a contact an inward journey. Ordinarily it is difficult to look in, but in a love-moment, some gap, you are not ordinary. In a love-moment you are at your maximum. When orgasm happens your whole body energy is throbbing with dance; each cell, each fiber dancing in a rhythm, in a harmony that you don’t know in ordinary life. This is the moment, this moment of harmony; use it as a passage inwards. While making love, become meditative, look in. A door opens at that moment this is . A door opens in that moment, and Tantra says that you feel happy only because that door opens and something of your inner bliss flows to you. It is not coming from the outer woman, it is not coming from the outer man; it is coming from your innermost core. The outer is just an excuse. Tantra does not say that to make love to the outer is sin, it simply says that it is not very far-going. It does not condemn it, it accepts its naturalness, but it says that you can use that love wave to go far inside. In that moment of thrill, things are not on the earth, you can fly. Your arrow can lead the bow towards the target. You can become a Saraha.
If while making love you become meditative, you become silent, you start looking in, you close your eyes, you forget the outer man or woman, then it happens. The muladhar, your male center inside, starts moving towards the female center the female center is swadhishthan and there is a coition, there is an intercourse inside. Sometimes it happens without your knowing it. Many sannyasins have written me letters; I have never answered before because it was not possible to answer. Now I can answer, you will be able to understand. One sannyasin writes to me again and again, and he must be wondering why I am not answering.... The map was not available up to now, now I am giving you the map. Listening to me he always feels as if he is going into orgasm. His whole body starts throbbing, and he has the same experience as he has while making love to a woman. He becomes very puzzled naturally so. He loses track of what he was listening to, he forgets...and the thrill is so much and the joy is so much that he is worried: What is happening? What is this inside him? This is happening: the muladhar is meeting with the swadhishthan, your male center is meeting with your female center. That is the joy when you move into meditation, when you move into prayer; this is the mechanism of your inner celebration. And the moment muladhar and swadhishthan meet, the energy is released. Just as when you love your woman energy is released, when swadhishthan and muladhar meet energy is released and that energy hits the higher center, manipura. Manipura is male, anahata is female. Once you have become attuned to the first meeting of your man and woman inside, one day the second meeting suddenly happens. You have not to do anything about it; just the energy released from the first meeting creates the possibility for the second meeting. And when energy is created by the second meeting, it creates the possibility for the third meeting. The third meeting is between vishuddha and agya. And when the third meeting happens, the energy is created for the fourth, which is not a meeting, which is not a union, but unity. Sahasrar is alone, there is no male-female. Adam and Eve have disappeared into each other totally, utterly. Man has become the woman, the woman has become the man; all division disappears. This is the absolute, the eternal meeting. This is what Hindus call satchitananda. This is what Jesus calls ’the kingdom of God’. In fact the number seven has been used by all the religions. Seven days are symbolic and the seventh day is the holiday, the holy day. Six days God worked and on the seventh day he rested. Six chakras you will have to work in, the seventh is the state of great rest, utter rest, absolute relaxation you have come home. With the seventh you disappear as part of duality, all polarities disappear, all distinctions disappear. Night is no longer night and day is no longer day. Summer is no longer summer and winter is no longer winter. Matter is no longer matter and mind is no longer mind you have gone beyond. This is the transcendental space Buddha calls nirvana. These three meetings inside you, and the achievement of the fourth, have another dimension too. I have talked to you many times about four states: sleep, dream, waking, turiya. Turiya means ’the fourth’, ’the beyond’. These seven chakras, and the work through them, have a correspondence with these four states also. The first meeting between muladhar and swadhishthan is like sleep. The meeting happens, but you cannot be very aware of it. You will enjoy it, you will feel a great freshness arising in you. You will feel great rest, as if you have slept deeply; but you will not be able to see it exactly, it is very dark. The man and woman have met inside you but they have met in the unconscious; the meeting was not in the daylight, it was in the dark night. Yes, the result will be felt, the consequence will be felt. You will suddenly feel a new energy in you, a new radiance, a new glow. You will have an aura. Even others may start feeling that you have a certain quality of presence, a ’vibe’. But you will not be exactly alert to what is happening, so the first meeting is like sleep. The second meeting is like dream: when manipura and anahata meet, your meeting with the inner woman is as if you have met in a dream. Yes, you can remember a little bit of it, just as in the morning you can remember the dream that you had last night a little bit here and there, a few glimpses. Maybe something has been forgotten, maybe the whole is not remembered, but still you can remember. The second meeting is like dream. You will become more aware of it, you will start feeling that something is happening. You will start feeling that you are changing, that a transformation is on the way, that you are no more the old person. And with the second you will start becoming aware that your interest in the outer woman is lessening...your interest in the outer man is not as infatuating as it used to be. With the first also there will be a change, but you will not be aware of it. With the first you may start thinking that you are no longer interested in your woman, but you will not be able to understand that you are not interested in any woman at all. You may think you are bored with your woman and you will be more happy with some other woman; some change will be good, a different climate will be good, a different quality of woman will be good. This will be just a guess. With the second you will start feeling that you are no longer interested in the woman or the man, that your interest is turning inwards. With the third you will become perfectly aware; it is like waking. Vishuddha meeting agya...you will become perfectly aware, the meeting is happening in the daylight. Or you can say it in this way: the first meeting happens in the dark middle of the night, the second meeting happens in a twilight time between the day and the night, the third meeting happens in full noon you are fully alert, everything is clear. Now you know you are finished with the outer. It does not mean you will leave your wife or your husband, it simply means that the infatuation is no more. You will feel compassion. Certainly the woman who has helped you so far is a great friend, the man who has brought you so far is a great friend; you are grateful. You will start being grateful and compassionate to each other. It is always so: when understanding arises it brings compassion. If you leave your wife and escape to the forest, that simply shows you are cruel and compassion has not arisen. It can be only out of non-understanding, it cannot be out of understanding. If you understand you will have compassion. When Buddha became enlightened, the first thing he said to his disciples was, ”I would like to go to Yashodhara and talk to her” his wife. Ananda was very much disturbed. He said, ”What is the point of your going back to the palace and talking to your wife? You have left her twelve years have passed.” And Ananda was a little bit disturbed also, because how can a buddha think about his wife? Buddhas are not expected to think that way. When the others had left, Ananda said to Buddha, ”This is not good. What will people think?” Buddha said, ”What will people think? I have to express my gratitude to her, and I have to thank her for all the help she gave me. And I have to give something of that which has happened to me I owe that much to her. I will have to go.” He came back, he went to the palace, he saw his wife. Certainly Yashodhara was mad: this man escaped one night without even saying anything to her. She said to Buddha, ”Couldn’t you have trusted me? You could have said that you wanted to go, and I would have been the last woman in the world to prevent you. Couldn’t you have trusted me even that much?” And she was crying...twelve years of anger! And this man had escaped like a thief in the middle of the night suddenly, without giving a single hint to her. Buddha apologized. And He said, ”It was out of non-understanding. I was ignorant, I was not aware. But now I am aware and I know, that’s why I have come back. You have helped me tremendously. Forget those old things, now there is no point in thinking about spilt milk. Look at me: something great has happened. I have come home. And I felt my first duty was towards you to come and to convey and to share my experience with you.” The anger gone, the rage subsided, Yashodhara looked out through her tears. Yes, this man has changed tremendously, this was not the same man she used to know. This was not the same man, not at all; this looked like a great luminosity...she could almost see the aura, a light around him. And he was so peaceful and so silent...he had almost disappeared, his presence was almost absence. And then, in spite of herself, she forgot what she was doing: she fell at his feet and she asked to be initiated. When you understand, there is bound to be compassion. That’s why I don’t say to my sannyasins to leave their families. Be there. Rabindranath has written a poem about this incident when Buddha comes. Yashodhara asked him one thing: ”Just tell me one thing,” she said. ”Whatever you have attained I can see you have attained, whatsoever it is, I don’t know what it is just tell me one thing: was it not possible to attain it here in this house?” And Buddha could not say no. It was possible to attain it here in this house, now he knew...because it has nothing to do with forest or with town, with family or with ashram. It has nothing to do with any place; it has something to do with your innermost core. It is available everywhere. First, you will start feeling that your interest in the other is loosening. It will be a dim phenomenon, dark looking through a dark glass, looking through a very foggy morning. Second, things become a little more clear, like a dream; the fog is not so much. Third, you are fully awake it has happened, the inner woman has met the inner man. The biopolarity is no longer there, suddenly you are one. Schizophrenia has disappeared, you are not split. With this integration you become individual. Before that you are not an individual, you are a crowd, you are a mob, you are many people, you are multi-psychic. Suddenly you fall into order. That’s what this ancient story says. The man had asked for three days.... If sometimes you look into these small stories you will be wonderstruck; their symbols are great. The man had asked for three days to sit silently. Why three days? Those are the three points: in sleep, in dream, in waking, he wanted to put himself in order. First it happens in sleep, then it happens in dream, then it happens in waking. And when you are in order the whole existence is in order. When you are an individual, when your split has disappeared and you are bridged together, then everything is bridged together. It will look very paradoxical, but it has to be said: the individual is the universal. When you have become individual, suddenly you see that you are the universal. Up to now you have been thinking that you were separate from existence; now you cannot think that. Adam and Eve have disappeared into each other. This is the goal that everybody is trying to find in some way or other. Tantra is the surest science for achieving it; this is the target. A few things more: I told you that the muladhar has to be relaxed, only then can the energy move upwards, inwards. And ’inwards’ and ’upwards’ mean the same; ’outwards’ and ’downwards’ mean the same. Energy can move inwards or upwards only when the muladhar is relaxed. So the first thing is to relax the muladhar. You are holding your sex center very tight. The society has made you very much aware of the sex center; it has made you obsessed with it, so you are holding it tight. You can simply watch. You are always holding your genital organism very tight, as if you are afraid that something will go amiss if you relax. Your whole conditioning has been to keep it uptight. Relax it, leave it to itself. Don’t be afraid fear creates tension. Drop the fear. Sex is beautiful; it is not a sin, it is a virtue. Once you think in terms of its being a virtue you will be able to relax. I have talked about how to relax the muladhar before. And I have talked about how to relax the swadhishthan; it is the death center. Don’t be afraid of death. These are the two fears which have been dominating humanity: the fear of sex and the fear of death. Both fears are dangerous, they have not allowed you to grow. Drop both the fears. The third chakra is manipura; it is loaded with negative emotions. That’s why your stomach becomes disturbed when you are emotionally disturbed, manipura is affected immediately. In all the languages of the world we have expressions like, ”I cannot stomach it.” It is literally true. Sometimes when you cannot stomach a certain thing you start feeling nauseous, you would like to vomit. In fact sometimes it happens a psychological vomit. Somebody has said something and you cannot stomach it, and suddenly you feel a nausea...vomit comes, and after vomiting you feel very relaxed. In Yoga they have methods for it. The yogi has to drink enough water in the morning a bucketful of water with salt, the water has to be lukewarm and then he has to vomit it. It helps to relax the manipura. It is a great process, a great cleansing process. You will be surprised...now many modern therapies have become aware of it, that vomiting helps. Action Analysis is aware of the fact that vomiting helps. Primal Therapy is aware of the fact that vomiting helps. It releases the manipura. Tantra and Yoga have always been aware of it. Negative emotions anger, hatred, jealousy and so on and so forth they all have been repressed. Your manipura is too loaded. Those repressed emotions don’t allow the energy to go up, those repressed emotions function like a rock; your passage is blocked. Encounter, Gestalt and therapies like that, all function unknowingly on the manipura. They try to provoke your anger, they try to provoke your jealousy, your greed; they provoke your aggression, your violence, so that it bubbles up, surfaces. The society has done one thing: it has trained you to repress all that is negative and pretend all that is positive. Now, both are dangerous. To pretend the positive is false, hypocrisy, and to repress the negative is dangerous; it is poisonous, it is poisoning your system. Tantra says: Express the negative and allow the positive. If anger comes, don’t repress it; if aggression comes, don’t repress it. Tantra does not say go and kill a person. But Tantra says that there a thousand and one ways to express the repressed emotions. You can go into the garden and chop wood. Have you watched woodcutters? They look more silent than anybody else. Have you watched hunters? Hunters are very good people. They do a very dirty thing, but they are good people. Something happens to them while they are hunting. Killing animals, their anger, their aggression is dissolved. The so-called nonviolent people are the ugliest in the world. They are not good people, because they are holding down a volcano. You cannot feel at ease with them, something is dangerously present there; you can feel it, you can touch it, it is oozing out of them. You can just go into the forest and shout, scream. Primal Therapy is just scream therapy, tantrum therapy. And Encounter and Primal, Gestalt, are of tremendous help in relaxing the manipura. Once the manipura is relaxed there arises a balance between the negative and the positive. And when the negative and positive are balanced, the passage is open; then the energy can move higher. The manipura is male. If the manipura is blocked, then energy cannot go upwards. It has to be relaxed. Polarity Balancing can be of great help in bringing about the balance between positive and negative. That’s why I am allowing all sorts of methods from all over the world in this ashram. Anything that can be of help has to be used, because man has been damaged so much that all sources of help should be made available. You may not even be able to understand why I am making available all the methods to you: Yoga, Tantra, Tao, Sufi, Jaina, Buddhist, Hindu, Gestalt, Psychodrama, Encounter, Primal Therapy, Polarity Balancing, Rolfing, Structural Integration why I am making all these things available to you. You have never heard of these things being done in any ashram anywhere in the East at all. There is a reason for it: man has been damaged so much that all sources should be tapped. Help should be taken from every source possible, only then there is hope. Otherwise man is doomed. The fourth chakra is anahata. Doubt is the problem with the fourth chakra; if you are a doubting person, your fourth chakra will remain unopened. Trust opens it. So anything that creates doubt destroys your heart it is the heart chakra, anahata. Logic, logic-chopping, argumentativeness, too much rationality, too much of Aristotle in you, destroy anahata. Philosophy, skepticism, destroy anahata. If you want to open the anahata you will have to be more trusting. Poetry is more helpful than philosophy, and intuition is more helpful than reasoning, and feeling is more helpful than thinking. So you will have to shift from doubt to trust, only then does your anahata become open, your anahata becomes capable of receiving the male energy from manipura. Anahata is female; with doubt it closes, with doubt it becomes frigid, with doubt it becomes dry, it cannot receive the male energy. With trust it opens, with trust moisture is released in that chakra and it can allow the penetration of the male energy. Then the fifth: vishuddha. Non-creativity, imitativeness, parroting, monkeying these are damaging. Just the other day I was reading a small anecdote.... A schoolchild was asked, ”Ten copycats are sitting on a fence. One jumped off and went away. How many are left?” And the child says ”None.” The teacher says ”None? Only one has left!” And the child says ”They are copycats. When one jumps, all jump.” Vishuddha is destroyed by copying. Don’t be an imitator, don’t be just a carbon copy. Don’t try to become a Buddha and don’t try to become a Christ. Beware of books like Thomas Kempis’ book Imitation of Christ beware. No imitation is going to help. Vishuddha is destroyed by non-creativity, imitation; and vishuddha is helped by creativity, expression, finding your own style of life, being courageous enough to ’do your own thing’. Art, song, music, dance, inventiveness all are helpful. But be inventive whatsoever you do, try to do it in a new way. Try to bring some individuality into it, bring some authentic signature. Even cleaning a floor, you can do it in your own way; even cooking food, you can do it in your own way. You can bring creativity to everything that you do; it should be brought. Inasmuch as you are creative good, vishuddha will open. And when vishuddha opens, then only can the energy move into the agya, the third-eye center, the sixth center. This is the process: first cleanse every center, purify it, beware of what damages it, and help it so that it becomes naturally functioning. Blocks are removed, energy rushes. Beyond the sixth is sahasrar, turiya, the one-thousand-petaled lotus. You bloom. Yes, that’s exactly what it is. Man is a tree: muladhar is the roots and sahasrar is the blooming of it. The flower has bloomed, your fragrance is released to the winds. That is the only prayer; that is the only offering to the feet of the divine. Borrowed flowers won’t do, stolen flowers from the trees won’t do; you have to flower and offer your flowers. Now the sutras. The first sutra: For the delights of kissing the deluded crave declaring it to be the ultimately real like a man who leaves his house and standing at the door asks a woman for reports of sensual delights. Kissing is symbolic symbolic of any meeting between yin and yang, between male and female, between Shiva and Shakti. Whether you are holding hands with a woman this is a kissing, hands kissing each other or you are touching her lips with your lips, that is kissing; or your genital organs together that too is a kiss. So the kiss is symbolic in Tantra of all meetings of opposite polarities. Sometimes you can kiss just by seeing a woman. If your eyes meet and touch each other there is a kiss, the meeting has happened. For the delights of kissing the deluded crave declaring it to be the ultimately real... Saraha says that the deluded the people who are not alert at all to what they are doing go on hankering for, missing, the other: man, the woman; woman, the man. They are continuously hankering to meet the other and the meeting never happens. The absurdity of it is this: you hanker and hanker and desire and desire, and nothing but frustration comes into your hands. Saraha says this is not the ultimately real meeting. The ultimately real meeting is that which happens in sahasrar. Once it has happened, it has happened forever. That is real. The meeting that happens outside is unreal, momentary, temporal, just a delusion. It is: ...like a man who leaves his house and standing at the door asks a woman for reports of sensual delights. A beautiful simile. Saraha says that holding the hand of a woman outside, while the woman inside is waiting to be yours and forever yours, is just like a man who leaves his house and standing at the door asks a woman for reports of sensual delights.
First: leaves his house.... You are leaving your house, your innermost core, in search of a woman outside and the woman is within. You will miss her wherever you go; you can go on running all over the earth and chasing all sorts of women and men. It is a mirage, it is a rainbow search, nothing comes into your hands. The woman is inside, and you are leaving the house. And then: standing at the door. That too is symbolic. You are always standing at the door, by the senses those are doors. Eyes are doors, hands are doors, genital organs are doors, ears are doors these are doors; we are always standing at the doors. Looking through the eyes, hearing through the ears, trying to touch with the hands, a man continuously remains at the doors and forgets how to go inside the house. And then the absurdity of it you don’t know what love is and you ask a woman about the delights, about her experience. You think that by listening to her experience you will become blissful. It is taking the menu for the food. Saraha is saying that first you go out of yourself stand at the door and then you ask others what delight is, what life is, what joy is, what God is. And God is waiting all the time within you. He resides in you...and you are asking others. And do you think that by listening to them you will come to any understanding? The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness has given artificial rise to pleasures in so many ways. Such yogis from affliction faint for they have fallen from celestial space, inveigled into vice. First: sex is not the ultimate in pleasure, it is just the beginning, the alpha, the ABC of it; it is not the omega. Sex is not the ultimately real, it is not the bliss supreme, but just an echo of it; sahasrar is far away. When your sex center feels a little happiness, it is just a faraway echo of sahasrar. The closer you come to sahasrar, the more happiness.... When you move from muladhar to swadhishthan, you feel more happy the first meeting of muladhar and swadhishthan is of great joy. Then the second meeting is of even greater joy. Then the third meeting...you cannot believe that more joy can be possible, but more is still possible because you are still away not very far but still away from sahasrar. Sahasrar is just incredible. The bliss is so much that you are no more, only bliss is. The bliss is so much that you cannot say ”I am blissful,” you simply know that you are bliss. At the seventh you are just a tremor of joy naturally so. Joy happens in sahasrar and then it has to pass six layers. Much is lost, it is just an echo. Beware, don’t mistake the echo for the real. Yes, even in the echo something of the real is there. Find the thread of reality in it. Catch hold of the thread and start moving inwards. The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness has given artificial rise to pleasures in so many ways. And because of this delusion that sex is the ultimate in pleasure, so many artificial things have become very important. Money has become very important because you can purchase anything for money, you can purchase sex.... Power has become important because through power you can have as much sex as you want; a poor man cannot afford it. Kings used to have thousands of wives even in this twentieth century, the Nizam of Hyderabad had five hundred wives. Naturally, one who has power can have as much sex as he wants. Because of this delusion that sex is the ultimately real, thousands of other problems have arisen: money, power, prestige. The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness.... It is just imagination...it is just imagination that you are thinking it is pleasure. It is an auto-hypnosis, an auto-suggestion. And once you auto-suggest to yourself it looks like pleasure. Just think: holding the hand of a woman, and you feel so pleasurable...it is just an auto-hypnosis, it is just an idea in the mind. The stirring of biotic forces.... Because of this idea your bioenergy is stirred. It is stirred sometimes even while looking at a Playboy picture; there is nobody, just lines and colors and your energy can be stirred. Sometimes just an idea in the mind and your energy can be stirred. Energy follows imagination. The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness...you can create dreams, you can project dreams onto the screen of nothingness...has given artificial rise to pleasures in so many ways. If you watch the pathology of man you will be amazed: people have such ideas that you cannot believe that this is happening. Some man cannot make love to his woman unless he looks at pornography first. The real seems to be less real than the unreal; he becomes excited only through the unreal. Have you not seen it again and again in your own life that the real seems to be less exciting than the unreal? Just there is sitting Rushma. She has come from Nairobi. The other day she asked: ”I hanker for you, Osho, so much in Nairobi. I dream about you, I fantasize about you...and I have come from so far. And now my heart is not fluttering that way. What has happened?” Nothing has happened, just that we are more in love with the imaginary than with the real. The unreal has become more real. So in Nairobi you have ’your’ Osho that is your imagination, I have nothing to do with it, that is your idea. But when you come to me, I am here...and then suddenly your imaginary ideas are no more relevant. You come with a dream in your mind; my reality will destroy the dream.
Remember to change your consciousness from the imaginary to the real. Always listen to the real. Unless you are very, very alert you will remain in the trap of the imaginary. The imaginary seems to be very satisfying for many reasons. It is under your control. You can have Osho’s nose as long as you want in your imagination. You can think whatsoever you want to think; nobody can hinder it, nobody can enter into your imagination, you are utterly free. You can paint me as you want, you can imagine me, you can expect...you can make whatsoever you want of me, you are free; the ego feels very good. That’s why when a master is dead he finds more disciples than while he is alive. With a dead master disciples are completely at ease; with a living master they are in difficulty. Buddha never had so many disciples as he has now, after twenty-five centuries. Jesus had only twelve disciples now, half of the earth. Just see the impact of the absent master: now Jesus is in your hands, you can do whatsoever you want to do with him. He is no longer alive, he cannot destroy your dreams and imaginations. If the so-called Christians had seen the real Jesus, their hearts would stop fluttering immediately. Why? because they would not believe. They have imagined things, and Jesus is a real man. You could have found him in a pub, drinking with friends and gossiping. Now this doesn’t look like the ’only begotten son of God’, it looks very ordinary. Maybe he is just the carpenter Joseph’s son.... But once Jesus is gone, then he cannot interfere with your imagination. Then you can picture and paint and create images of him as you like. Far away it is easier the imagination has full power. The closer you come to me, the less and less power will your imagination have. And you will never be able to see me unless you drop your imagination. So is the case with all other pleasures. The stirring of biotic forces in the house of nothingness has given artificial rise to pleasures in so many ways. Such yogis from affliction faint for they have fallen from celestial space, inveigled into vice. If you imagine too much, you will lose your celestial space. Imagination is samsara, imagination is your dream. If you dream too much, you will lose the celestial space, you will lose your divinity, you will not be a conscious being. Imagination will outweigh you, it will overburden you, you will be lost in a fantasy. You can faint in your fantasy and you can think that this is samadhi. There are people who faint and then they think they are in samadhi. Buddha has called such samadhis ’wrong samadhis’. So says Saraha: It is a wrong samadhi. Imagining about God, going on into your imagination, feeding your imagination, nurturing it more and more, fantasizing more and more you will faint, you will lose all consciousness; you will have beautiful dreams of your own creation. But this is falling from the celestial space. And Saraha says that this is the only vice: to fall from your purity of awareness. What does he mean by the ’celestial space’? Space without any dreams. Dreaming is the world; without dreaming you are in nirvana. As a brahmin, who with rice and butter makes a burnt offering in blazing fire creating a vessel for nectar from celestial space, takes this, through wishful thinking, as the ultimate. In India, the brahmins have been doing yagnas. They have been offering rice and butter to the fire, the blazing fire, and imagining that this offering is going to God. Sitting around a fire, fasting for many days, doing certain rituals, certain mantras, repeating certain scriptures, you can create a state of auto-hypnosis. You can be befooled by yourself and you can think that you are reaching God. Saraha says: Those who really want to enter into God, they will have to burn their inner fire; the outer fire won’t do. And those who really want to attain, they will have to burn their own seeds of desire; rice won’t do. And those who really want to attain, they will have to burn their ego; butter won’t do. Butter is just the most essential part of milk, the most purified part of milk. So is ego the most purified dream; it is ghee, purified butter. Offering ghee to fire is not going to help. You have to burn your inner fire. And sexual energy moving upwards becomes a fire, it becomes a flame. It is fire! Even when it moves outwards, it gives birth to life; sex energy is the most miraculous thing. It is through sex energy that life is born. Life is fire, it is a function of fire; without fire life cannot exist. Without the sun there will be no trees, no men, no birds, no animals. It is transformed fire that becomes life. While making love to a woman, the fire is going out. While moving inwards, the fire is going in. And when you throw your seeds of desire, seeds of thought, seeds of ambition, seeds of greed into this fire, they are burned. And then, finally, you throw your ego the most purified dream; that too is burned. This is real yagna, real ritual, real sacrifice. As a brahmin, who with rice and butter makes a burnt offering in blazing fire creating a vessel for nectar from celestial space, takes this, through wishful thinking, as the ultimate. And he thinks, through wishful thinking, that this is the ultimate. The man who is making love to a woman and thinks that this is the ultimate is throwing into the outer fire in exactly the same way; he is pouring into something outside. And so is the woman who thinks she is making love or moving into a great space of bliss and benediction by just making love to a man, just throwing out her fire. The fire has to move inwards, then it gives a rebirth to you, it rejuvenates you. Some people, who have kindled the inner heat and raised it to the fontanel, stroke the uvula with the tongue in a sort of coition and confuse that which fetters with what gives release, in pride will call themselves yogis. And a very important thing.... Just as I explained to you the map, you have to remember that the vishuddha, the fifth chakra, is in the throat. Vishuddha, the throat chakra, is the last point from which you can fall. Up to that point there is a possibility of falling back. With the sixth chakra, the third eye, attained, there is no possibility of falling back. You have gone beyond the point from which one can return. The point of no return is the third eye. If you die at the third-eye center, you will be born at the third-eye center. If you die at sahasrar, you will not be born again. But if you die at the vishuddha, you will slip back to the first, muladhar. In the next life you will have to start from muladhar again. So up to the fifth there is no certainty; there is promise, but no certainty. Up to the fifth there is every possibility of falling back. And one of the greatest possibilities that has helped many people in India to fall back is, this sutra says, because: Some people, who have kindled the inner heat and raised it to the fontanel... You can create the inner heat the flame starts moving upwards and it comes to the throat; then there arises a great desire to tickle the throat with the tongue. Beware of it. In India they have devised great techniques for tickling it with the tongue. They have even cut the roots of the tongue so that the tongue becomes long and can easily move backwards you will find many yogis doing that. The tongue can move backwards and it can tickle the fifth center. That tickling is masturbatory because the sex energy has come there. Just as I told you, the fifth chakra, vishuddha, is male. When the male energy comes to the throat, your throat becomes almost a genital organ of more superiority, of more finesse than the genital organ. Just a little tickle with the tongue and you enjoy greatly. But that is masturbatory, and once you start doing that...and it is very, very great pleasure, sex is nothing compared to it. Remember it: sex is just nothing compared to it. Tickling with your own tongue...you can enjoy it so much. So in Yoga there are methods.... Saraha is making it clear that no tantrika should do that. It is a deception and a great failure because the energy has come up to the fifth, and now the desire arises to tickle it that is the last desire. If you can keep yourself alert and can move beyond that desire, then you will reach to the sixth center, agya; otherwise you will start falling back. That is the last temptation. In fact, in Tantra that is the temptation which you can say that Jesus had when Satan comes and tempts him, or Buddha had when Mara comes and tempts him. This is the last temptation, the last effort of your desire-mind, the last effort of your dream world, the last effort of the ego before it is lost utterly. It makes a last effort to tempt you. And the temptation is really great: it is very difficult to avoid it. It is so pleasurable, infinitely more pleasurable than sex pleasure. When people think that sex pleasure is the ultimate, what to say about this pleasure? And it loses no energy. In sex you have to lose energy; you feel frustrated, tired, weak. But if you tickle your sex energy when it has come to the throat, there is no loss of energy. And you can go on tickling the whole day that’s what Delgado has attained through mechanical devices. Some people, who have kindled the inner heat and raised it to the fontanel, stroke the uvula with the tongue in a sort of coition and confuse that which fetters with that which gives release... This is again samsara...falling back into samsara. ...and confuse that which fetters with that which gives release, in pride will call themselves yogis. But they are not, they have missed. In fact the right word for them is yogabrashta, ’one who has fallen from Yoga’. The fifth center is the most dangerous center. You cannot tickle any other center that is the danger of it. You cannot tickle swadhishthan, you cannot tickle manipura, you cannot tickle anahata; they are beyond you, there is no way to reach them and tickle them. You cannot tickle the third eye. The only point which can be tickled is vishuddha, your throat center, because it is available. The mouth is open, it is available, and the easiest way is to turn your tongue backwards and tickle it. In Yoga treatises you will find it described as something great; it is not, beware of it. This is the inner map of Tantra alchemy. The energy can start moving any time; you just have to bring to your lovemaking a little meditation, a little inwardness. Tantra is not against lovemaking, remember; let it be repeated again and again. It is all for it, but not just for it; it is the first rung of the ladder, a seven-runged ladder. Man is a ladder. The first rung is sex and the seventh rung is sahasrar samadhi. The first rung joins you with samsara, the world, and the seventh rung joins you with nirvana, the beyond. With the first rung, you move in a vicious circle of birth and death again and again; it is repetitive. With the seventh rung, you go beyond birth and death. Life eternal is yours the kingdom of God. Enough for today. </poem>